You bullied me betrayed me. But yet I smiled. I got tortured beat and raped. But yet I smile. You made my pearly white hands do your dirty work now I look at my hands and they feel like leather and they're dark as coal coverd in blood. But yet I smile. I have you my heart and showed you were my princess made my world your world, but you laughed and threw my heart into the fire then let your dog use as a chew toy. But yet I smile. I lent you my friendship but you stabbed me in the back. But yet I smile. I called you blood and family and you called me scum and waste of space and told me to kms. But yet I smile. I looked up to you were my idol yet you used me like a cannon fodder .but yet I smile. I told you I loved you and you said you loved me two days later we at our throats and you fucked everyone up and down the block. But yet I smile. You were the key part of my life the best thing to happen to me but you left me. But yet I smile . You told me you would stay you never meant that you just used me till I was useless and you threw me out . But yet I smile. But yet I smile hehe. Wanna know why I smile through all of this?
Because why would I give you the pleasure of acknowledgement. Why I give you that feeling of success. How on earth would I let you know that what you did had no affect on me why would I dwell and affect others. Make my new friends and family suffer and bring them the pain you gave me. Bring what you taught me on people who are completely innocent lashing out.
NO! Because instead I can smile and laugh and live my life with those I love. Do the things I'm grateful to do, because you taught me that not everyone is to be trusted and that life is a gift. All life is precious and I got that message so I smile and I say thank you. Thank you for the hell you put me through. Because I now know who I love who's family and friends and have mourned my lost family members but why cry because they're gone. When I can smile because I knew them.
