as I hope one day you'll come back to this God forsaken town
so you can see me sitting right where you left me 3 winters ago
still lost in the dream full of promises that your hypnotizing eyes and whispers induced
I realize that's exactly what it is
I'm only dreaming
Dreaming that you'll pull me in like you did for the last time on that quiet October night
when you whispered all the things you'll miss about me
all the adventures you can't wait to share once you get back at the end of spring
whispering how painful being apart will be
but I guess it isnt all that painful because here I sit on my bed, the last place we were together
on a beautiful day, 3 sad springs later
hoping that today's the day you come back
that'll you'll walk in
pull me close
and whisper how all your promises are going to come true
whisper how beautiful I am and how stupid you were to leave
sitting exactly where you left me
exactly how i do every spring
I realize I'm the stupid one for believing all the lies your enchanting eyes covered up for you
sitting here I remember being suspicious of every word you said as you said it,
not fully trusting the promises you were making as we held each other in the dead of the night
and I suppose you sensed me doubting because you knew exactly what to do next
you tilted my chin up towards you and forced my eyes to look into yours
knowing then that as long as our eyes were connected I would believe anything you told me
and you continued whispering promises of love and a life of adventures once you returned
and I continued to push away doubtful thoughts
but now after years of dreaming and years of not wanting to let your promises go
I realize that you won't be walking in any time soon or ever
and that the postcards I receive each spring with no return address saying your still not sure when you can come back are something that was so strategically apart of your plan
and as reality dawns on me that you never meant any of your whispering promises I wonder
why keep me hoping each year?
why not just disappear like a ghost?
but I know why,
I was the first to love you for being you
not the cocky player everyone else knew
I knew your flaws and I knew your secret talents and I still wanted every single one
you keep me dreaming of empty promises because you don't want to end up unloved
I'm the trick card you plan to use when you realize you're all alone and no one is truly there for you
and I begin to feel sorry for you but even worst for myself that it's taken me 3 years to officially allow myself to hear the truth
but I'll hold on to those promises not allowing them to be truly empty
ill go enjoy life, giving myself the promises you left
because I don't need you anymore to show me what life is
I'm going to go live it and only live it with people who won't whisper their promises but proclaim them loud and surely
that's what I deserve
that's what I will get
I only hope that if you do come back you'll find this letter and decide to live out promises you've made to yourself hoping to be a better person
I'll always love you
for you crazy messed up lying eyes opened mine up to enjoy life
YOU ARE READING
short love stories
PoetryI probably won't update a lot, just doing this for fun and to get a few less voices and memories out of my head most are going to be about love some may be about hurting but all are going to be apart life and how it hurts and loves each of us in st...