impatience • seungjin

t h r e e • p i t i f u l

it's purely sexual.
but hyunjin can't take it anymore, because aside of how much of a turn on public handjobs behind the school's cafeteria are, no matter how much he enjoys hot make out sessions after cleaning up and the distinct feeling of their mouths in each other. it isn't enough.
and it's not even funny the fact that he is still hanging out at the christian club even though he isn't grounded anymore. it's definitely not funny the fact that after some sexual encounters, kim seungmin can't get out of his head and leaves him always wanting for more.
hyunjin doesn't wanna dwell in these new feelings that keep coming up, those that make him desperate for the other boy's touch and that put him in a vulnerable position each time seungmin leaves after meeting up, extra sensitive.
these feelings that make him feel like shit but don't stop him but rather encourage him meeting up again with seungmin.

it doesn't stop.
it makes his insides twist in every way possible. it was truly so fast and addicting, hyunjin wonders what would change if they actually fucked. that maybe this isn't actual love at all.
(he knows deep inside it's more close to it than far). he can't live with it anymore, every kiss sends him to a full state of need that never goes away and when he thinks about seungmin's hand it's not sexual anymore.
the next thursday, after everyone leaves, hyunjin closes the door, rests his body in a desk near by and breathes loudly.
"i like you" its simple and cruel and cold, just like how he was seen by the rest. maybe if he gets rejected at least he can fulfill those expectations. seungmin isn't looking at him but his back is tensed and he's gripping that chair way too hard. he turns around really fast, corners him against the desk and it's like their first kiss all over again, only seungmin doesn't kiss him time. he just grabs hot hair really hard and his breathing is heavy. hyunjin can't read his eyes and it freaks him out just a little.
"do you now?" he chuckles "what, i sucked your dick a couple of times and suddenly you got a crush on me?" he looks down at him with an incredible amount of disgust and it freaks him out to notice it turns him on. "such a pathetic slut, that desperate for touch, that anyone could give you the littlest amount of attention and then you fall for them?"
hyunjin swallows his tears and keeps his head up " i knew you were a weak slut, but this is another level."
seungmin is laughing with so much cruelty in his voice that he wonders if the other boy was always like this.
"how about this, i fuck you once, get a chance at that thight ass of yours, and then, maybe, i will consider doing this regularly" hyunjin nodded, whatever seungmin was willing to give him, he would take it. "one condition though, whore. you can't come"