like i just wonder if i was to go - would people miss me would i matter the way people talk down upon me!
like would things would be better off if i was away from everyone else ?
do you ever come to the conclusion that even when things aren't ur fault you still feel the weight as if it was?
when things are ur fault how do you respond? do you try to express urself?
or in the process - get shut down or
just suck it up as being nonchalant to hide whatever you are feeling?
they say hiding feelings isn't good but it works 19 years of my life
have you ever been scared of someone for over 15+ years?
better yet 15+ years & living with that person.
that's some deep shit,
fear is something else- that is uncontrollable bcuz when you think it's over, it haunts you like batman as he watches over Gotham.
what makes u mad, sad, happy?
how do you know if one is happy? by the smile that is on their face, ever think about that smile being a mask
a mask to cover deep deep emotions nobody else could ever understand?
mask off then what, people view you as weak
weak due to expressing urself? but who does that ultimately better me? you? bcuz all i see it being used against me.
these feelings are something that i cherish but they get played with how i use to play with females feelings... karma could it be mhhhm?
who will ever know, would someone answer these questions?
i feel like i don't want them answered bcuz it'll discover something much deeper-
something deeper that i don't know if i could handle, but yet again i've conquered my fear
the world may never know, what's in store for the next chapter.
