Fragile Moves

The Forever End.

I won't write much. I don't know if I can write that much.

Corie and I got back together on New Years and things were going well ( i thought).

It's April 12th and Corie called me to say that she just didn't have feelings for me. I guess I can't blame her. I didn't cry much that night. honestly, it didn't fully hit me that we were actually done until four days later. so here I am, cutting all ties. deleting all photos. changing all names. and deleting all conversations. here I am, lost. sad. and broken. I'm not so sure what's next for me. I might stay. I might leave. I'm just not sure yet. I know this isn't the end of the world, but it kinda feels like it. Time has moved slowly and yet too fast all at once. I feel more numb. I feel like I'm on the verge of losing myself at any time.

Today I packed all of her stuff up. I cried while listening to Picture by Kid Rock and Cheryl Crow. I sat in the middle of my room, surrounded by friends, when I finally lost myself. It hurts but I know that I am okay. I know that this is not the end for me. I know that this is not the end for us. One day she will be an award winning scientist and I will be excelling in whatever I finally choose. We will cross paths and I will barely recognize her. She will be happy and so will I. And I will still tell her that I love her. That she fixed me when I was broken. That she believed in me when no one else did.

So this isn't a goodbye or a cliche "see you later." This is an I'll miss you.

(Corie didn't like wayhaught like I did. but I always saw us in them. Had to put it in)

Fin.