but he doesn't want me
no matter what i do
he wouldn't want me
and it hurts to think about it
it's hard to even sleep at night
or force myself to eat
because living without him is so much worse
than slowly dying
and i'm trying my hardest
every single day
to make myself feel something
something else
something that would make me feel like i'm actually alive
that i could just as easily accept
the fact that he will never love me
as easily as it is for me to get used
to the pain of slowly killing myself
day by day
it gets harder
and you would never understand
because you don't like him like i like him
don't you see?
i'm head over heels for a boy who wouldn't even glance at me
i want him so bad
i'd rather torture myself with these pathetic fantasies
and endless hoping for a love that can never be
when he sends me a simple text
my eyes light up and my heart starts to beat so fast
i feel like everyone else in the world could hear it
but no one can
not even him
especially not him
because why?
because i fucking keep it all inside
and it hurts me
you don't understand how much it hurts me
i want to scream his name on a rooftop
i want to tell every single soul on this planet that i like him
i like him so much
can't you see?
i like you so much
