Girls Need Love Too

Story 1: MELANIE

I saw him yesterday. We were on spruce street getting ice cream and I saw him. I tried to not stare too hard, but I couldn't resist. Sissy was in my face the entire time. She always liked to embarass me when we got around boys, on some jealous shit. I would say its because they never pay her any attention. But if that's the case, then we in the same boat. That's if we talking this specific group. These were upperclassmen. Jason was an upperclassmen. He only had me by three years though. To my momma that's three years too old. But I'm in high school now, anybody could date anyone in high school right?... That's what they say at Jefferson high. My momma aint want me to go there neither. She said I was too bright for the neighborhood school, and that she'd rather me down on broad street with the artsy kids. Don't get me wrong I like playing violin. But they don't make enough for me to make a living, only the best of the bests, and I wasn't that good. Jefferson is cool though, and Jason is my soon to be bae. He just don't know it yet. See me , my girl Sissy, Maniyah, and Jaylaa all had something for one of these upperclassmen jocs. Maniyah's boo was Justin, Jason's twin brother who was nowhere near as cute as him. Jaylaa was head over heels for Mike, the husky ass quarterback, he was a little too big for my liking. And Sissy was all over Chris, literally ALL OVER him. she was always acting so joe whenever we got around them, it was embarrassing. It made me just stay mute cause I aint want Jason to think I was on some immature shit. But all that's over after tomorrow. Tonight is the night to step out. It's a party up uptown and I know jason and all his friends gone be there. I gotta get cute. And I don't mean dress down day at school cute, it's time to step out like I said. I already let the girls know whats poppin.
    Before I got dressed I made two tukey clubs to fill me up incase there was red cups going around at the party. I had already told momma I was spending the night at Maniyah's for a sleepover. Which was only half a lie because I actually am staying there. Sissy's mom offered to drive everyone to the party and drop us off. They lived up west so it wasn't that far a drive to my house. Sissy's mom isn't usually this nice, she must be going that way for something. After doing some light makeup I slid on my mini skirt and stockings, my floral corset fitted just right. I know this because I could still breath in it. I grabbed my nike sweatpants and t-shirt and threw them on with my slides. I put my heels in my overnight bag. If momma saw what I was wearing under this she'd deadass smack the shit out of me. And none of my friends would see me until june. It was october... My phone buzzed, a text from Sissy read " girl come out we outside"." and hurry up you know how my momma is".. I grabbed my stuff and headed downstairs. I yelled " see you momma I'm leaving".  She responded " Ared... AND YOU BETTA BE WHERE YOU SAID YOU WAS GONE BE". My heart dropped. I only hated lying to my mom because of the consequences. I knew whatever mistakes I made in life she would always forgive me because she loved me. I heard a chorus of beeping cars outside so I damn near flew down the steps. "girl come on before we leave yo ass" Sissy screamed. So loud they could hear her on 46th street. She was just like her momma. Loud, rachet, ghetto, and JOE. She been cursing in front of her mom since she was like 10. Their minivan smelled like cookies and dirt. Like there had been 10 kids ranging from ages 5 to 9 crying, playing, and shitting in there all damn day. Luckily I packed my japanese cherry blossom so I wouldn't get out smelling like this bullshit. It had been my favorite bath and body works fragrance ever since Jason told me he liked it. Well, he didn't necessarily tell me he liked it. We walked passed each other in the hallway in between home room and second period. He looked over to mike and said " something smells good ashit". My heart melted like chocolate chips in a microwave. I've worn it every day ever since.
    After scooping Jaylaa and Maniyah from Jaylaa's house, we arrived at the party. This shit was jumping. We knew because people's voices were louder than the music, and you could hear meek blastin from down the street. I had already slipped off my baggy nike set. I tucked my mini perfume bottle in my purse so I could spray once I got out that damn van.  Once we all got out you could see the immature excitement in our posture. Everyone was cute, accept Sissy who came in her dress down day clothes. It was obvious she aint have much but we ain't never make her feel no way about it. You'd think shed be a little less joe though, she always wanted to be the center of attention. We walked up to the door. Jaylaa started knocking. " girl what you think this is?" Sissy said right before barging the damn door open. We walked in and nobody even noticed us. We seem so small in a room full of elephants. I was starting to think we were the only freshmen in a house full of sophomores, juniors, and maybe some seniors. 5 minutes into the party Sissy tells us "the drinks in the kitchen". She really is a wild one. We get to the kitchen and a group of guys from the P was blowing it down. I recognized them because one of them used to chill with my cousin angela, before she got all pregnant and shit. " hold up, hold up... I know this aint lil mel mel" the familiar face said as I reached for a red cup. " I aint lil mel mel no more, it's Melanie..". I responded calmly.." okay well, "melanie", the fuck you doing with that cup? , ain't you like two ?". I looked at him like he was my little brother that I just caught reading my diary, now just pull my card with ya ugly ass.. " get off her dick !" Sissy said with an annoying look on her face. " we just tryna have fun like everybody else" . I wasn't surprised Sissy responded, this girl always had something to say. " you tryn have fun hun?" the boy responded. " yea I am" Sissy said. " now pass me that L nigga". Me, Maniyah, and Jaylaa simultaneously look at sissy, then each other. " here she go, doing the most again..." Maniyah whispered in my ear. In the midst of all the commotion in walks the most handsome soon to be senior that has ever walked through Jefferson High's halls. Jason. Right Along with Justin, Mike, and Chris. What a coincidence. I hadn't even got the chance to pour anything in my cup. Wasn't like I was gone drink it anyway, it was just for show. I had never gotten drunk before, and I knew my first time wouldn't be at no upperclassmen party. As I reach to get my drink I hear " wassup Mel, you look nice". I recognized that voice, if it is really who I think it is I just might pass out. What if I say something dumb, or make a dumb face. I could feel my heart beating a thousand times a minute. I finally turn to look over my right shoulder. And it's Chris.... Sissy's wanna be boo. I look over at sissy still smoking with the SP guys. "wassup, thank you." I said.Before I could even get "you" out my mouth I catch sissy staring at me. Chris goes on to say " so wassup mel, why you never be tryn give a nigga no play?". Before I could even respond Sissy storms out of the kitchen. I immediately storm after her. The last thing I wanted her to think was that I was tryna push up on her guy- that isn't really her guy. I turned to see if Maniyah and Jaylaa would follow behind, but they were to lovestruck by Justin and Mike. Plus, Jason had disappeared somewhere so I had no reason to stay. " Sissy hold up" I yelled over 21 savage blasting from the dj booth. " Bitch aint no hold up!" she responded in anger as she turned around with fury. "Bitch? Ard Sissy you my friend and all but watch ya fucking mouth no cap." she was making me angry, and I ain't come out for that. " naw fuck outta here mel, I saw what I saw, you on some hoe shit!". At this point I'm mad. Still tryin to keep my composure I respond to her dumbass. " girl bye, you ain't ever heard Mel and hoe in the same sentence ever! how about you look in the mirror sweety. Don't be mad at me cause you couldn't catch that boy attention. You spent all this time on that man dick and he still dont want you!" I watched Sissy's eyes. I could almost see flames of frustration and anger. I knew she wanted to hit me with every bone in her body. Just like a typical hoodrat project bitch.. " Man fuck allat! You think cause you a virgin that make you better? These niggas dont give a fuck about that shit, you just easier to manipulate dummy! You think Jason gone really want to be with ya tight ass? He gone fuck you and duck you stoopid!". At this very moment I knew me and Sissy would no longer have a friendship. Her true feelings were coming out and I felt like this was meant to happen. I had always felt like Sissy was jealous of me. She was so insecure and a bum. She wanted my life so she secretly envied me to stay my friend. She was showing me who she really was and it was my job to believe her. So I let loose. " like all them niggas that fucked and ducked you right? I aint you Sissy! You walk around and all these guys just see you as a piece of ass. We only been in high school for like 2 months and literally EVERYONE knows what you get into. You just a rachet, ghetto, JOE ass bitch from the projects. And that's all you'll ever be". I started to look around the living room. Now this is when I began to feel bad. I knew people were listening , and I knew she was embarrassed. But she brought this on herself. " nice to see how you really feel, you was never my friend anyway " she said as she walked away. I aint stop her neither. " mel what the fuck!". I heard Jaylaa say as she walked toward me from the kitchen. " what happened mel?". Maniyah asked. " nothing man, where's Jason ?" I said while looking around the crowded living room full of drunk and high teenagers. " he's in the backyard" Maniyah says. "Wait " Jaylaa says." where's Sissy?, whats wrong with her?." Once I heard "where's Sissy" I was already on my way to the back yard. How dare Sissy say that about Jason. He didn't seem anything like how she tried to make him seem. she really was describing Chris sloppy ass. Jason was quiet and discrete. Not to mention he was the star of the football team as skinny as he is.
    I entered the backyard as I exited the house. Jason was standing there smoking a face. I never knew he smoked, I swore the athletes weren't allowed. Once he heard the screen door close he slowly turned around. A grin appeared on his face, a grin I had never seen him make before. well atleast at me. He had high cheekbones and nice golden brown skin. He eyes were dreamy brown and he had the long lashes. His waves spun like the pacific ocean and he had some pearly whites. I saw some of his throwbacks at the bottom of instagram from a few years ago, braces were responsible for that nice ass smile of his. He began looking me up and down. I pulled my mini skirt down in the back so I wouldnt give off the wrong impression. "You stepping out tonight huh?" he said with that same grin on his face. In my mind I thought "that was the plan " lol. "Just sum light shit" I responded with a nonchalant look on my face. I was truly freaking out on the inside tho. I've been waiting for this for so long. " oh yeah?". He said while puffing on his L. I didn't know what to say back. Too scared I was gonna say something stupid I walked and sat down on the lawn chair. I carefully sat down and crossed my legs. I felt his eyes on my skin. He was admiring my beauty. Well at least I hope so. " what you doing here anyway ?" He said while he slowly blew smoke out of his mouth. I responded with an agitated "huh?". " I mean, who invited you, how you find out about this spot. "....why was he asking me this .. more importantly, why did he care ?.. " word of mouth ya know" . I tried to remain as cool as possible. One simple fuck up would ruin it all. My future husband was at the palm of my hands. " oh yeah?" He Said again.. the fuck was "oh yeah?" And why did he keep saying it. This ain't going as planned at all. " well, you looking real nice tonight..... for a freshman." . My eyebrows began to squivvle as if that was an insult, I fixed them before he noticed. " what's being a freshman got to do with anything ?.."
he grinned , then put his L out. "Nothing at all". Okay , now he was confusing me. Maybe this was some weird older boy shit I've never experienced. Whatever it was, it wasn't making sense. " it's getting cold out here, let's go inside". I didn't want to go inside though, I liked having alone time with him . I had to make up something fast .. " it's hot in there, too many people ... I came out here to get some fresh air.." . "I didn't mean down here with all these people , let's go upstairs ...". I felt my tongue fall to my ass. Why did he want to go upstairs?.. I mean , I know why most guys would want to go upstairs. But I made sure to not give off the wrong impression. Plus, Jason wasn't like that, he wouldn't be forward with me. He was nice. And sweet. And smart. And everything I ever wanted in a guy. I've only known of him for about 2 months and I know he's the one. I can feel it. " let's go" I said with confidence but not too much. On my way to the staircase I saw Maniyah. " Mel where you going?". "Upstairs with Jason". "What ! Wait Mel lemme talk to you for a second". What could she possibly want right now ! She knows how long I've been waiting to get to know Jason on some personal shit. "Wassup Maniyah?...". " I don't think you should go up there with him Mel..". " listen , I know what your thinking but Jason not like that ...". " how would you know that you barely know him Mel.. and he is an upperclassmen who hangs out with Chris and mike, and you know how they are ..."." And I told you he's not like that ! I was just talking to him outside...". Maniyahs face filled with frustration. She said " and ??!! Talking to him for 15 mins doesn't mean you know him . Plus we can't find Sissy, she's somewhere drunk and we're worried .."." Don't talk to me about no fucking sissy, that bitch ain't my friend anyway". Now just bring up Sissy. Fuck that bitch. "so you about to just abandon her for some nigga you don't even know??. Think Mel, this nigga wants to fuck you . Stop being naive. If not, why couldn't y'all just keep talking outside ??.". What did she know. She sound like Sissy . " listen I don't give a fuck about Sissy, just like she don't give a fuck about me. She never wanted me to be with Jason and I'm starting to think you feel the same way. Y'all some haters...."." Haters ?? I'm your friend that's trying to warn you to not do no dumb shit. I don't know what's with you but you ain't thinkin straight. This nigga got you sprung. But you go head and be dumb over dick..". I watched her walk away in disbelief. What the hell was going on with all my friends tonight , well at least I thought they were my friends.
      I went upstairs. I accidentally walked into two drunkies about to get it on. "Oops wrong room"  I said before slamming the door. There was only one other bedroom in this little ass row home of a house. I'm surprised the neighbors ain't call the cops yet it was at least 12:30. Before opening the next door I took a deep breath. As I reached for the door knob a familiar voice filled my ears. And it wasn't Jason. It was a female. I put my ear to the door, as the voices went from mumbles to words I realized who was in there. " stoppp " the girl said. My eyes widened as if I just saw murder. She giggled and said " you know ya lil girlfriend Mel gone be mad " then giggled some more. It began to become more clear . I slammed the door open and bussed in the room. " really Sissy!!". I stared at sissy In shock and disappointment. As she laid there with nothing on but a bra and them corny ass joe jeans she had since '08. She stared back. A few moments later.I just walked away. I had no words. How could Jason. Her nasty ass probably pushed up on him , fucking whore. And his dumbass fell right for it. She not even his type. He just wanted a quicki real quick after all. and he knew he wasn't getting that from me ..
       I went downstairs to meet up with the girls , the party was winding down and people were starting leave . " where's Sissy? Her mom is outside". Jaylaa asked. "She upstairs getting fucked by Jason...". I replied as if I was referring to two peasants. "No.... noooooo... she's not". Jaylaaa said. "She can't be ". Maniyah said as she shook her head in utter disappointment. "I told you that bitch wasn't my friend .. now come on". We all walked outside to sissy's mom car. "Where sissy at!?" Her mom yelled once Maniyah slid the van door open. "We don't know " jaylaa responded. I sat in the back seat recollecting what I just witnessed, how this night just went so sour so fast from the rip. I was so mad at sissy I could fuck her up right here in front of her own mother. "The fuck you mean y'all don't know". "She somewhere drunk with some nigga". I responded with heavy attitude and sarcasm. Jaylaa looked at me like I just committed murder. "Some nigga? What nigga?!!.." .her mom stared at me with a tilted left eyebrow as if I was lying. "Wait hold up I think she coming I just texted her". Maniyah said. Not even a minute later sissy opens the passenger seat door. " why y'all ain't tell me y'all was leaving out ?". She looked to us as if we would play along .." naw fuck that, why the fuck was you with some nigga and not them !".her mom yelled. "I wasn't with no nigga where you get that!??". Sissy was the worst liar. It just wasn't her thing. " just sit the fuck down and close my door". The ride home was silent. Although Sissy's mom had power 99 blasting , it still was very quiet. And still. Me and maniyah were the first ones to get dropped off. "Thanks Ms S." Me and maniyah said together as we exited the van. "See y'all" jaylaa said. "Bye sissy..." maniyah said with the look of disgust on her face. I turned to look at sissy as they drove off. She couldn't even look me in my face.
      Monday morning came. It had been two days since the fuckery occurred. As of now upperclassmen parties had put a Sour taste in my mouth. I wouldn't be attending anymore anytime soon. Especially with that bitch sissy. "Mel?". I turned around to see jaylaa walking with her two strap floral book bag. She loved that bag. Once we hid it and she almost cried and tried to fight Maniyah. "Hey girl". I said trying to sound unaffected by Saturday's events. " I gotta tell you something but I don't want you to overreact". She said. What now? .... what else?... I really hope this has nothing to do with the situation with Sissy.. "just tell me jaylaa". Her face got this nervous look on it. " well, everybody's talking about sissy and Jason . From Saturday ...". "Okay , and...". I was confused why she was telling me this . I already knew everybody would be talking. Sissy a slida, so everybody stayed in her business. " well, there are rumors Mel.., like, about you too..". What rumors could possibly be about me !??? I ain't do nothing with bul. " rumors like what ???" I said agitated. " well, sissy been telling everybody that when Jason invited you upstairs, you couldn't give him what he needed so he told you to dip. Then invited her up instead". I couldn't believe what I was hearing. " she said that he had been all over her at the party but he knew you liked him and y'all were friends , so he wasn't trying to press the situation". How dumb !! What type of fucking rumor is this?! This is by far some of the dumbest shit I've heard in a really long time. Why is sissy saying this about me?! " what else Jaylaa?". " that's all I know as of now. Now she walking around feeling herself because all the upperclassmen giving her some attention. They heard she "go crazy with the bops" as they say". So this bitch ain't even get hit, she just topped bul off and now she bragging about it . " you seen her talking to Jason today?". I asked. I don't know why I was still so worried about him. " yea I seen him earlier, he walked right pass me and sissy tho, she spoke all joe but he just gave her a head nod". Stupid bitch. You did all that and he still ain't fucking with you. She so stupid. " ard jaylaa I gotta get to class imma see you at lunch.
The whole hour I sat in mr pollicio's class I thought about what I would say to sissy when I saw her. I thought if I would even say anything at all. I wasn't sure if I was supposed to handle the situation unbothered or just sock the shit out her when I see her. I felt like socking her. But part of me kept telling myself I was bigger than this. That stooping down to her level wasn't me. I knew I could beat her up. It was just a matter of when her karma was coming, and if I was the one responsible for it.
   The bell rang . I went to the bathroom before next period. As I'm squatting in a stall I hear some ghetto chicks walk in. " that party was fucking lit yo" one girl said . " it was ard". Another responded. " I heard the freshmen was "lit lit"." Y'all heard about the lil jawn sissy and Mel?". Oh my god.. here we go. I swear I did not feel like anymore drama. Saturday was enough for me. " yea, I heard the lil jawn Mel was salty ashit Jason ain't want her. And the lil jawn sissy was on some shit ". They all began to laugh. I started whipping myself thinking of what was going to happen when I walked through the stall door. " ya ex is Amess girl. Doing these freshmen like that knowing they don't know no Better".now I wanted to know who these girls were. Jason had a few ex girlfriends at Jefferson. " Jason been amess child. But he still be on my line begging. I ain't fucking with him though, cause of lil shit like this". I flushed the toilet. Opened the door. And walked to the sink. The girls got real quiet. After washing my hands I walked over to the paper towel dispenser. "Excuse me" I asked whichever girl was standing in front of it. " your excused". Her comment was followed by laughter. I felt my adrenalin starting to pump " bitch move". I said stern and frank. I knew I couldn't let these upperclassmen hoes think I was some type of bitch. Once they think you a nut they just keep fucking with you. " oop, lil feisty one". The girl said to the other. She had the right one today. I wasn't scared of these bitches anyway. " look I got class, I ain't gonna ask you again". I was sturdy. Ten toes down talking my shit. I wish a bitch would. " lil girl shut the fuck up , what you gone do ? " I stared at her while I thought about what I was actually gonna do. " that's what I thought". She mugged me as she walked pass me toward the door. I swung my hand back and swung it forward. My fist connected to her ear. Then I just kept wamming. My hair was in a pony tail and she had in a 30 inch loose body wave , that looked a lil synthetic if you ask me. I used that to my advantage. I swung that ass on the floor . Before I could throw anymore punches her friend leaps on me. She starts Pulling my ponytail and I fall on my back. They both stomping me out now. By this Time every girl that was in the hallway is in the bathroom watching and screaming. Then I hear "MEL!" . It was Maniyah. She came flying in catching reck on the bitch that snuck me. That gave me the opportunity to get up and finish what this wack ass bitch started.
        It was noon... NOON! And I'm sitting in the deans office for some shit I aint even start. Sitting wishing I went to school on Broad street with the artsy kids. Wishing I never became friends with Sissy in the first place because she was to blame. If I was getting in trouble for whooping some ass it shouldve been hers, period. My momma warned me about the company I keep. I also wished that Maniyah didnt come to my rescue. She was too thurl not to though. I shouldve listened to her when she told me about Jason.