Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3

ZAYN'S POV

I went to this bar near the house i used to share with Perrie ,no stop it i have to stop thinking this way she dosen't love me anymore hell she was cheating on me wasn't i even good enough ?? i should have listen to my fans. i really thought she was the one, God i was even going to propose to her . i was now drinking my fifth glass of whisky.

thank god we are on a break right now or else mangment would have killed me . Simon understands what i am going throught so he has no problem about me drinking unless i lay low and don't make a problems me and my the lads don't need a bad reputation and lose fans.

but i can't stand the looks everbody has been giving to me , FUCK why can't they just leave me alone for some time is it to much to ask for ? i don't think so .for the past weak i have been reaciving two kind of looks the first one was pitty from the people who knows half of the truth the second look was disappointed which was from who knows nothing because i can't bring myself to tell them whole truth to them atleast not now .

*flash back*

i just got home from the boys house Perrie should be here by now .as i enterted the house was empty but on second thought there was a pair of men shoes which wasn't mine then i heard sounds coming from from the main bedroom so as i came closer the voices were clear it was Perrie with another man having sex on our bed i opend to find both of them naked in bed i ran towred the guy taking him by surprise 

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING " i shouted at them kicking the unkown man

"oh my god Zayn it is not what you think it is " she said while putting an over sized shirt over her body and running towrds me and the man while we were fighting

  "really cause i think it is what i think it is " i said while i gve the man i finall kick before knoking him out

"if you can just give me time to explain " she said while crying

"  TO EXPLAIN WHAT HOW UNLOYAL ARE YOU??  THERE IS NOTHING TO BE EXPLAINED YOU WERE JUST CHEATING ON ME I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES , I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT YOU RIGHT NOW YOU DISGUST ME" I shouted at her

"if you please just give me 2 minutes to explain " she said by now she stopped crying

 '2 minutes is all what you got " i said in a low voice i was about to cry but i heald my tears in

"you know how both of us are always working and on tour and then was when i started to fall out of love with you and James was there he was one of our back-up dancers and one thing led to another , i am just so sorry i never ment to hurt you like this" she said a tear falling from her 

"you know i was actully going to propose to you next week , i should've listend to my fans you really are a bitch that is really low Perrie .i'm going out now but when i come back i don't to see you ,him or anything belong to you we are OVER PERRIE DO YOU HEAR ME ?" and when i came back there was nothing left of hers but there was a letter which i haven't  opened yet

*end of flash back*

that was the day i discoverd this bar and i came here every day after that.

*after a couple hour*

I was really drunk by now I think it is time to go home but I can't bring my self to go there memories hunt me there of how perfect we were so I took a taxi to the boys house I have my own room there so I went for it

When I reached there I heard thier laughter it was high that I envied them why can't I be happy like them ? What have I done in my life to desrve this ?

I walked to the stairs hoping they wouldn't notice me I didn't need thier pitty nor the looks of confusion from Harry and Niall but I can't bring myself to tell them but I was so unlucky and they heard me

"Zayn is that you ? " I heard Niall's cheerful voice

"yeah it is me I'm just going to my room to get some sleep" I said I didn't really want to talk, see or sit with anyone

"Oh okay then" he said

I could hear the disappointment in his voice with a hint of pitty did he know about what happened ? No it can't be maybe I'm just too drunk to notice

I just walked to my room and fell on my bed and went into a deep sleep .

(A/N) hiiii so what do you think guys ??? comment and vote please you would make my day :).  and i know this was short i promis to try and make the chapters longer  :)