Darkness and Light

THE STUPID LORD OF DARKNESS

    WILL:
     Now, almost everyone in the camp knows the fact that I have a crush on Nico Di Angelo (Except for the people who was on the quest of course).
     Fine, I admit it. I had had a crush on him since the time of battle of Manhattan. I always have admired his bravery and his way of scaring just anyone ( Percy Jackson was scared of him). So anyways, I liked looking at his cute little face . It was sometimes scarred, it Always had sunken eyes, and it was so pale. But I still found it cute. Sometimes I had the urge to go to him and comfort him. I wanted to hug him and say that he had friends.
        I thought that maybe after the battle of Manhattan ended he would start making friends and start living at camp and all. When I came to know that he was building a cabin, I was so happy and was jumping about in my cabin.
     I did think of talking to him. But the thought scared me. What if he hated me because I'm all sunshiny? We were polar opposites. He wears black all the time and do not want to talk to anyone. But I was quite the opposite.
         He had that habit of appearing out of nowhere where there is people. Tell me how do you expect us not flinch or be expressionless?. At least he should have gave us time to adjust to his appearance out of nowhere.
        Yes I know, these are the facts on my point of view. Just because I wanted to justify myself. I wondered how I would feel if somebody flinched at the sight of me. I would be devastated and would be caught under depression (yes I do get depressed. Just remember, however bright my personality may be, I still feel sadness. I'm only human) .
           And thinking about him, he had been getting flinched at all his life. He was always unwelcome at most places. Everybody looked at him in disgust.
Even Percy Jackson talked about him with doubt. Whenever Percy mentions him, he mentions about the fact that Nico tried to lure him into a trap and in most cases he forgets about how much times Nico has saved his life.
         I liked him. I wanted to make him feel welcomed. I wanted to do everything to make him happy. But somehow I found myself staring at him at a distance. I didn't dare approach in case he hated me and asked me to go away. I mean not knowing was better than being enemies right?.
        The night before the war with Gaia ended, I was shocked to see him standing in the woods, alone. Cecil and Lou snickered when I realized it was him and called his name. Of course he sounded annoyed. Why not?. OK so I tried talking to him. He looked so pale and worse than ever. When I heard coach Hedge talking about him disappearing, I felt so weighed down, that I decided to go with the others to spy on Octavian.
      And of course I came in front of him. He was curious about coach Hedge's kid and I told him about the delivery. The smile that spread on his face was priceless. It mad him look like an angel. OK maybe a really tired angel but you get what I mean.
       So back the moment, I had left him waiting in a room in the hospital wing which may have happened to be my favorite. I told him I had to get take all the doctors stuff. And that was true but the main reason I got out was because I couldn't handle it anymore. Think about standing too close to a nuclear reactor which is suspected to be leaking and could burst out any moment. Multiply it by a thousand times. Maybe that was what I was feeling. Not only because he had a strong aura around him,  but also because...well because he is my crush and I like him, a lot.