A Little Piece of Heaven

Regret

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Nevaeh's POV

California has been amazing. It feels like I'm on vacation or something. And for that I feel guilty because it isn't a vacation. If it was my mom would be here with me and she isn't. Everyday it's a constant remind of why I shouldn't be so happy.

" Nevaeh! Where the hell have you been?" Looking up at the anger clearly on my moms face I was busted and in deep sh!t.

" Mom I can explain."

" Explain?" She gave a humorless laugh. " Oh thank God you can explain! Now please explain to me why my 14 year old daughter i sneaking in at 2am and what is Gods name have shes been up to.'" Yup she was definitly pissed.

" I just needed sometime away. Just went for a walk to clear my head."  I said.

" Time away from what?"

" Stuff. Like school, Kyle, you." I said, Kyle being her new boyfriend. i can't stand that douche. He doesn't deserve my mom.

" What do you mean. Kyle has been nothing but good to us. We've been trying so hard and you're being ungratful." Yeah he tries so hard that whys hes a dead beat that mooches off my mom.

" He barely works and he thinks hes the boss of me! He nothing but a stupid prick!" Shes always defending him.

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" I do not appreciate you using that tone of voice in my house and about me! You will not raise your voice at your mother again! You hear me!" Kyle made his way into the livingroom and stood by my mom.

" You don't know what your talking about! This isn't your fucking house! And don't YOU raise your damn voice at me again!" I yelled in his face.

SMACK!

The memory has bee haunting me a lot resently. I was the last big fight my mom and I ever had and it was the first time she had ever lied a hand on me. I have to say I wouldn't be surprised if Kyle was to slap me acrossed the face, but my mom that was a huge shock. She was never in her right mind when he was around. That night was also the first time I've ever used the words I hate you to her. I felt so bad and she must've too because she got ride of Kyle and things got back to normal. She never said sorry for hitting me or for Kyle. Kicking him out was enough. I never said sorry for saying what I said to her. We never said sorry to each other it just wasn't what we did. We just moved pasted it and never did what we were sorry for or spoke of it.

Now I wish I would've said sorry. Sure we've said we loved each other many times even after that big fight we said it frequently, but still. I know I could never take those words back and even though she hit me I didn't really hate her.

She never abused me if thats what your thinking. It was just that slap. She was with Kyle for 3 months and during those months I was in my depressed teenager stage. He made me and her feel bad about herself so I don't know why she even stayed with him. Other than him being in the picture those 3 months, my life was fine. My mom did the best she could raising me and gave me a good life.

I felt tears pour down my face.It feels like forever since I cried, but really only days. All the mean things I've ever said to her or have done replayed in my head. I used to be glad that we never said sorry and just moved on and left our apoliges unsaid. Now I regret not coming out and saying how sorry I am.

" Hey, Nevaeh, time to get up." I felt someone shake me away. Looking at the clock is read 6:30am.

" Woah, are you ok?"  Zacky asked. I realised hes the one who woke me up, not Jimmy surpriseingly.

" No Jimbo today?" I asked ignoring his question. If I answered it I'de end up crying again like I did all last night till I fell asleep.

" Nope, doctor's appointment, so you get me. But are you sure you're up to going? I know it =s school and he have to, but you look like sh!t.. I mean poop." I almost laughed that he thought he had to correct himself.

" I'm fine, just a little tired, and you don't have to use baby words with me like poop. I'm a big girl I can handle sh!t."

" Oh really, look whos using big kid words now." He siad sticking his tongue out and getting up to walk to the door.

" Wit, why are you here this early?"

" We all are. We wanted to see you off on your first day of school and Jimmy will be her soon for breakfast so hurry and get ready." As he shut the door I got up to head to the bathingroom.

Looking in the mirror I almost screamed in horror. My eyes were blood shot red and puffy. Not to mention my rats nest of hair. IN other word I looked like sh!t or in Zacky words poop.

Great this day is not off to a good start already. My eyes hurt, my hair is a giant mess, I'm up not long after the sun, and I'm starting my first day of high school in a new country. Most importantly I'm starting it without my mom.

Wahhh this is going to be a poopy day.

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Aww poor Nevaeh :( First day of school in next chapter, Hopefully her day will get better! Who knows? I do and you will too... right after you VOTE AND COMMENT!!! ALSO FAN!!!!

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