I'll see you again

Hello again

- Joey -

"Damnit Amanda just let me go to the damn party, it's not like you ever pay attention to anything other your precious scotch anyways so what's the matter?!" She glared at me then went back to our bedroom, or should I say her bedroom seeing as I've been living on our couch for the past three weeks. I guess it's my fault for marrying a girl who I don't love, marrying a girl despite me knowing very well what my sexuality is. She was a nice girl when I met her but her dealing with the stress of our obvious failure of a marriage made her different. She walked back into the room as I was about to leave, I expected a snarky comment but instead she handed me a folder. The folder has many many papers in it

"What is this?" I could have read the papers but this is much easier and quick seeing as I have plans tonight, for the first time in months

"Divorce papers." Damn, I didn't expect that one, I'm not really surprised I knew this would happen, everyone knew this would happen. I put the papers down and went over to the sofa and held her. I may not love her like a husband and wife should but I love her, she was my best friend and we both know this marriage falling apart, is on me not her and I feel badly for that.

"You should go, best not be late." she got up and went back into her bedroom to sleep I'm assuming considering it's nearly eleven pm, I'm not even sure what this party is for. An old friend from YouTube said I really should consider attending. I only quit YouTube last year, I didn't want to but I rarely had time for it anymore, I got decent acting jobs but after hearing no for the ten thousandth time I thought I should go for a more stable job, I'm a Sales representative. Not the most exciting job in the world but I'm not miserable there and it pays the bills so I'm not one to complain.

I pulled up to a building downtown where I guess the party was, as I could feel my car vibrating from the music. I walked up and gave my name to the bouncer then walked into the strange location not recognizing a single face until being attacked my hugs from someone I had yet to figure out who.

"JOEY!" it was Meghan, one of my best friends and roommate for the longest time. I miss that, everything was simple then.

"Meghan hey!" I was honestly so confused on what to say, I haven't spoken to her in person in years. Yes I may have texted and send postcards on the holidays, physical contact hasn't been made in a long time.

"I'm glad you came I was scared you weren't" I felt bad giving her that expectation so many things have happened in the past four years, I myself are finding it difficult to keep up. I pushed everyone away calling off the 1 day engagement witth Sh-. I can't even say his name, it's been four years and I still can't think about him without wanting tobreak down. God knows what i'd do if I saw him.

"Why wouldn't I come?" I don't know why I had asked her this, we both knew very well why I wouldn't have come, I haven't shown up to a Youtube party in two years. Fearing i'd run into him.

But as a drunken man came to Meghan leaning on her trying to speak with his failed slurred words,

I knew exactly why she thought I wouldn't come.

-Shane-

"Do we have to go" I pouted knowing very well that it was no use, I thought I'd give it a try hoping she would for a reason I can't come up with, agree with me. She's been rting to get me to go out more so I don't live out my life as a couch potato, who spends all day writing. 'It may be your job but that doesn't mean you can sit around all day'. Thats why I love her, it's weird I thought I'd marry him. I really did and then after all I went though I some show fell in love with a girl of all people. Shes the only girl for me. literally. Does that even make sense? to be gay but fall in love with a girl, does that mean I'm Bisexual? I confuse myself a lot.

"Yes we have to go, it's our engagement party after all!" oh yeah did I mention I proposed, it took me four years to get as comfortable as I did with him so I thought I'd do it. I just don't know if it's because she's been there all this time that I feel this way towards her and not because I actually want to be with her as much as him. I would say his name but, there's too many memories that come with that name, I just can't.

We've been dating for two years so I guess I have to have some feelings towards her to have been in this boat as long as I have. When I look at her I feel special, that's something.

"Meghan please" she smirks and drags me out the door so we can get there and set up.

We get to the party and set everything up, as soon as people come in I get attacked by hugs and good wishes. I'm just so happy that all my friends accepted us and I felt good for the first time in a while.

And then I got drunk..

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so this is the sequal to "Our Story" and I hope you like it

I'm really tired so goodnight

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