It's been two weeks after the whole lunchroom scenario. Joziah and I hadn't really spent too much time talking to each other. He chose to hang with Sophia instead. It didn't really bother me the first couple of days but by the end of the week I began to question if he still wanted to talk to me anymore.
I walked into the lunchroom and sat at the regular table with my new lunch-buddy. Adonis. or "Don" as he'd preferred I'd call him from now on. Don was different from the rest of the guys. He chose to talk about classes and do missed homework rather than rant about the latest craze on Facebook or Twitter. He actually cared about his future. We'd become very good friends. I even got his number! I almost lost my mind the day he asked me for my number so we could talk later that night. I think he likes me. But...i can't be sure just yet. He might just want a buddy seeing as he's the new kid school...
I picked up a piece of dehydrated spinach with my fork. Lunch food is repulsive. The most disgusting unidentifiable thing ever.
"So what are you going to do this spring break?" Don asked me
I dropped my fork and looked up.
"To be honest I'm not even sure."
To be honest I was sure. I didn't get to go anywhere during breaks. Dylan didn't allow it.
"what are you doing this summer?" I asked him trying to get the thought of him out of my head.
"Well do you know that new band Cy? They're having a concert a few days after we start break and... I was kind of wondering if you would like to come with me..."
I felt everything at the same time. Excitement, Fear and Regret. I was Happy he'd asked me But I couldn't go.
"um...I'll check with my..friends and stuff"
what friends?
"...and my parents and I'll Call you". yeah okay.?"
"Oh... alright then." He replied smiling at me.
You never know how long 5 minutes is till it's spent in utter silence. I picked at the vegetable on my plate and ate it out of boredom. It tasted just as bad as it looked. When the bell rang I almost ran out of my seat.
As I was going to throw the garbage out, Don took me by the arm. I pulled my hand away from him feeling very uncomfortable. I didn't like being touched like that.
He looked at me as if I had just said the worst possible thing to him.
"I'm really sorry I just don't like to be grabbed like that...I didn't mean to offend you it's just..."
"Its okay" he said. "I shouldn't have grabbed you like that. You were rushing to leave and I just wanted to say goodbye."
"It's okay" I managed to smile at him.
i tried to shake off what could've happened. i had to learn to control myself.
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Later that day i sat on my bed. Luckily for me him and his friends weren't home so i had time to sit and relax. At least for now. They probably went to some bar or club or something.
Don had asked me out!
Well..not really. It was just to go see a band. Nothing serious. I had to tell myself that so i dont expect anything. I couldn't wait to tell Joziah. He wouild be so happy and...
Then it came to me. I havent spoken to him in days. He never wants to be around me anymore. He's always with Sophia now. Sometimes i see them walking out of school and he just looks at me and looks away. It hurts me to see him ignore me like that. He's the closest thing i have to a friend. Ever since that incident last week.
I started to remember everything that happened and the way he smiled as Don walked away. It was..unatural. He's never smiled like that before. It was all dreamy and stuff. It reminds me of how a girls smile when they look at girls they ...like.
Oh my God. No. It can't be. That's impossible. Don isn't..
Don is GAY??
I started thinking about everything. He never really keeps guy friends. He always prefers to be around females. I gasped when i remembered the day i went to his house when we were in middle school and he picked out that outfit that everyone loved.
So does that mean he likes Don? Oh no.
We had to talk. Weather he wants to or not.
