"I don't want to either, he's nothing to me" Bella Croft February 14th
I'd been in France for a month and a bit now and I loved every minute of it. Monday's I would go to the city with josh, Jc and Alex, wandering around and just having fun, being free. They were a great group of people who really knew how to have fun.
Then Tuesday I would go in and observe a poetry class for the kids aged 10-12. They were wonderful and it was different to Canada, here they were much more passionate.
Wednesday was the feminist club. The little girls were strong minded and had many questions for me, I loved it. A few boys also joined to impress the girls which was adorable. Then after it ended I would go watch josh in the boxing ring teaching the kids. He had an amazing body and would sweat diamonds. He would look over at me, send me a smile then continue. I liked watching him interact with the kids, he was gentle and kind, Everyone loved him.
Thursdays was the poetry class again. I learnt a lot about French culture, it opened my mind and allowed me to focus on the poems rather than anything else. It helped calm the colour storms a lot. I just felt at peace.
Friday was supervising dinners which was actually fun. I did it with meg and Kendall, we would just watch the kids have their dinner then play with them outside which was fun.
Then during the weekends we would all go out together, we went to the hidden gems of France, hidden beaches, cafes and we even went on bike rides.
As for the colour storms I only had three which was good. I told the girls and josh about them and they were kind about it, they didn't treat me like I was damaged.
Every day I called home, dad and Ryder filling me in about what's going on. I also found out that Brian and Matt had been going to Ryder and taking him out when dad was busy.
The guys would call me maybe once a week just asking how I was and Brian stuck to what I said. I never heard or seen Shawn.
Shawn. Of course there were small things that reminded me off him but I'm moving on, not literally moving on to someone else but forgetting him. I guess I could never forget him really, he was my first love but I'm over him.
- "Eyes Shut Bella" josh chuckles, one hand covering my eyes, one hand on my waist.
He had taken me out after my poetry class for a bike ride and lunch, keeping me busy all day. I liked spending time with him, I mean I didn't like like him but he was lovely and charming.
"Happy birthday!" Everyone yells. The whole house was decorated in pink and red balloons, heart shaped balloons too. It's my birthday and Valentine's Day.
"Oh my... josh!" I jump in his arms and he holds me tightly. "Happy birthday Bells" he grins. I peck his cheek then pull back smiling.
"Thanks guys" I chuckle giving each of them a hug. "The big two zero, how you feeling?" Josh chuckles.
"Josh your twenty two, you're older than me" I shove him playfully.
"We got you gifts" meg dances towards me. She takes my hand leading me to a table with gift bags. "Open mine first" meg tells me.
I open meg's gift and she had painted me a gorgeous painting, it was a back of view of me riding my bike down a path way. "I love it meg" I give her a hug.
Jc and Roman gave me a framed scrabble board that had all our names on it going in different ways. It was unique, also thoughtful.
Alex and Kendall gave me a frame, we were all in the picture taken from when we went to a breakfast cafe and also gave me a teddy, it was the storm care bear. It was funny and they said "it's a reminder that we're all here" which gave it extra meaning.
Josh gave me a book of poems and a boxing style robe with 'Croft' written at the back. I thanked them all and gave hugs to them all, I almost cried too.
And Roman made a huge dinner, Valentine's Day themed. We were all sat around the table, I felt happiness nothing could make this day better or worse.
"Okay time for cake, close your eyes" josh tells me. "Close my eyes?" I chuckle, I cover my eyes and wait for them.
"Happy birthday to you..."
A voice I recognised clearly. ""Happy birthday to you, "Happy birthday dear Bella, "Happy birthday to you"
I open my eyes immediately getting up. "Daddy!" I chuckle. Josh takes the cake and I pull dad into a hug. "What're you doing here?" I cry into his shoulder.
"Oh my god Ryder" I lean down pulling him in a hug. "It's your birthday Bella" dad chuckles wiping his tears.
I hold dads hand closing my eyes then open them. They were still there, I wasn't dreaming.
We then sat all together, dad and Ryder got along with everyone well. It was lovely, my family and friends here with me.
Alex took tons of pictures for me and today was truly a good day. I felt happy, like I had nothing to worry about.
"Hey Bells, me and Ryder are leaving tomorrow night so could we go out tomorrow?" Dad asks. "Yeah definitely" I nod.
"And how are you doing?" Dad asks taking my hand. "Good" I nod. "The storms are rare, I'm happy here dad. France is so nice and so are all these people" I say looking around.
"And what about at home? Have you talked to Shawn?"
I shake my head no. "I don't want to either, he's nothing to me" I shrug. "And that josh boy, he seems to like you. He did do all of this for you" He nudges me. "he's just a good friend" I chuckle.
"I just want you to be happy Bella" dad smiles.
"And I am"
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