Why? Why do you ignore me? Every time you come, you don't even bother to say hi to me. You judge me by my size saying I need to lose weight, I need to stop eating, and more. Im sick of you telling me that.
The only time you are really nice to me is when you are buying me something or giving me money. It's as if you trying to buy the love. You think buying me a few pairs of shoes is going to make me love you, your wrong. I see what you're doing you're trying to manipulate me. It's not going to work and neither are the guilt trips you give me for no reason.
When you don't have any negative comments to give me, or when you're too tired to go buy love from me, you pretend I don't exist. You stay in your room until my mom comes to pick me up.
Every day you mentally emotionally abuse me. Sometimes I think about giving up the next eighty-seven years I have of my life because of you. I hate having to be in the pain of your mental harassment. I think its stupid that I still think about you.
You have hurt me so much that my brain and my heart have functioned to stop loving you. Recently I have made my mind up about something. Im going to stop loving you. As much as it hurts that one percent I have of love for you, im trying my best to get rid of it. Im going to start my life plan for the sake of my childhood. Ignore you, pretend you don't exist, not care about you.
So go ahead do whatever you want, ignore me, insult me, because in the end your not what im supposed to call a father anymore your just a stranger.
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Toxic
Non-FictionBased on my life this a risk im taking of putting this out. This is something personal and something I need to do to get the depression out. Im writing my feelings out this is only certain notes I have written on paper. Im not saying any names besid...
