Toxic

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I was talking to a friend of mine that left my school a while back, I told him about my little crush. I dont know what it is i can only tell certain people these things, i dont tell my friends that I talk with everyday, sit with everyday laugh and cry, i feel like they will judge me. I get scared.... im scared of my own friends. They would take it out of hand start screaming it to other people, they dont know how deep it is for me and here they start making fun of me. I cry sometimes they think i wont take something seriously sometimes but i do deep down i want to cry my life out of my body... its difficult.
Anyways this friend i told him about my crush and he asked how long i have been liking him and I told him since last year when he left. He got mad and told me to tell him already and shoot my shot, I was hesitant at first but then i opened his contact on my phone and told him, he told me that he didn't believe me, then I told him why I do I gave him a speech longer then a lecture at harvard university.
But I mentioned in the speech that i knew he didn't like me back, I knew because he already likes someone else. I knew what would happen when I would send the text.
In my brain I knew he would tell me no that he didn't like me back but deep down in my heart i really wanted him to tell me "yes so do I" but i had to accept reality.
With that speech i knew then he would believe me so I started getting nervous when I saw the three thoughts on my screen.
"Aww"
Was his response
What did he mean
I need context what do you mean
" but you know I like another girl"
" I know im aware you like someone else but im telling you with confidence because i dont want to lie to you anymore"
"Im proud of you, you showed me confidence, but no matter what you tell me no matter how weird you think this is going to be after this no matter what happens you're still going to talk to me we stay together like glue i dont care if you feel uncomfortable i will make you comfortable with me , remember I love you, dont be upset baby, im sorry I cant love you like you do to me but i do love you in a way"
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He started to get worried i told him i needed time to get over it. Im teenager crying over a boy how stupid has our generation gotten.

I love him, he knows now, but he refuses to break our friendship.

Thats why i love him

Even this morning he was trying to cheer me up, he is there when i need him, even if he is the one that made me sad.

Thats what a true friend is, even if they are the cause they will be there to help you out.

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