Clarity - Z E D D

Memories

"Elise, it's time to wake up honey..." said mom while playing with my hair.

She knew that for the past month, i didn't get an hour of sleep. That if i did sleep, i'd get nightmares or that i cried myself till exhaution. She knew everything but didn't bother me about it. That's something i like about her.

She left and i took a 'shower', wich consisted of my standing under the water, just staring blankly at the wall till the water runs cold. How can something that started so well ended this badly?

I got dressed in some random skinny jeans and Anton's red hoodie. Why are you wearing his clothes? you may ask. Well, i'm not over him yet... I know it's already been a month and all but it's hard to let your fiancé i met 5 years ago. He was 20 while i was 19...

I was walking on the streets, searching for coffe when finally i spot a little coffee shop. I opened the door to have my nose attacked by the strong scent of coffee.

The indoor was quit cozy and had a family feeling to it. I ordered a cup of steaming black coffee and a small croissant to go with it.

I finally get my order and search the small room for a place to sit. The place was not full of people it's just that it didn't have a lot of chairs or tables so i just ended asking a guy if i could sit with him.

"I'm Anton" he greeted with a strong german accent.

"Nice to meet you Anton, I'm Elisa..." i said staring into his green orbs.

That's how we met. I didn't expect him to ask for my number or 3 years later that we would be fiancés!

"How was your day lieben?" he asked . We were in the same coffee shop. It was the place were we would just sit and talk about anything. It's been 2 years since he asked me to be his girlfriend, 2 years since i said yes.

"Good, good... Work is going well and we are preparing for summer." I worked as a sale accountant for Dior.

"Here's your croissant." said the waiter.

I took a bite and felt something hard in the pastrie. I looked in it and saw a a ring... Anton got on his knee and pulled the ring out of my hand.

"Lieben, I remember the first time i met you... In this coffe shop. I remember staring into your beautiful eyes that day and wondering if i would ever see you again. I even remember the first time we kissed back in the day.

I used the technic "There's something on your lips" and i can't believed it worked since i am now asking you a question that could make me the most happy man in the universe..."

"Elisa Danielle Vaudran... Will you marry me?" He looked so fragile, asking me if i accepted his heart.

"YES!" he spinned me around as the customers claped and awed.

A tear managed to escape and fell onto the floor. Happy times they were. I then remember the bad times.

"Anton..." i cried as i clutched my stomach.

"What! Lieben what happened?" he stressed.

"Something is wrong with Damien..." I screamed as i saw blood driping from my pants.

He carried me into the car and ran into the hospital. He came back and got me with the help of some nurses.

" I'm sorry, but miss Vaudran had a miscarriage..."

That's when everything changed. We never went back to the coffee shop. We never talked without breaking into an argument. We never felt loved anymore... It was like living with a stranger...