my mom's screaming at me.
i'm listening, but not able to say anything
,,nobody cares about me! it's always the same! you do that, your stepbrother, your dad, my friend, everyone! nobody cares what i'm feeling!!"
she cries. me too.
,,but it's okay. treat me like that, i can handle this. like always. it's always the same so whatever."
i'm just able to say that i'm fucking sorry.
but she don't cares.
,,no, i have the feeling that you WANT to treat me like that!"
she's not believing me.
i'm a bad kid. i'm sorry that i'm your child.
sorry, that i'm alive.
12pm.
i'm sitting on my bed, crying, hurting myself. it feels good. but it's not.
i don't want to do that.
but everything is making me sick, i'm motionless, sad, crying for no reason.
,,i just want to die", are the only words i can say in this awful moment.
