Why I wonder does it hurt so much to lose you
Why I wonder is it that I didn't cherish you as much as I should have when you were alive
Why I wonder do I wish to spend more time with you when you're already gone
Why I wonder do I wish we could have done things differently
Why I wonder does it feel like the only way to keep moving forward is to hide the pain
Why I wonder do I feel guilty for laughing, guilty for smiling when I still miss you
Why I wonder did I learn more about you after you passed than when you were still alive
Why I wonder how such a pure soul like yours could leave us so soon
But I am still happy for all the memories I still have with me
Memories I will keep near and dear till im old
You lived a long and happy life
Why I wonder if you knew the end was near
That you would meet my grandfather in heaven
Every event that lead up to it,
Felt so planned
I will always love you
But it is alright for me to move on?
To feel happy?
To have been able to know a woman as smart,
as beautiful,
as pure,
and as kind as you,
Is the best gift of all
I truly hope you are at peace wherever you are
And that we love you and hope you can watch over us always
Love,
Your granddaughter
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To my dearest grandmother
PoetryMy grandmother passed away last week, this is a tribute her. It does not do her justice but it is my love to her