New Town New Life

New feelings

I was walking home I had a little bit of a walk about 15 minutes. It started to get kind of windy and started to sprinkle. Great and all I had was a leather jacket with no hood. Soon enough it started to rain harder. I hear someone yell me name from behind me. I turn to look over my shoulder and see Jack. "Hey, you mind if I walk with you?" He says. "Sure" I say looking away. We continued to walk in silence. I shiver a little bit as jack looks over at me. "Oh here, use this" he puts his hoodie around me and puts the hood up. "Uh thanks" I say awkwardly. I feel it again. I can feel him looking at me still. I look up slowly and see him full on starring at me and smiling. "What?" I say kinda giggling. Since when do I giggle?! "Oh nothing, just you look really cute in my hoodie" he says quietly. "Thanks" I giggle again. I smile and look down. I feel his hand pull my face up as we stop in the middle of the road and turn to look at each other. I look into his eyes. I feel weak. I know what's happening. I want to just step away and start walking again but my body won't let me. I stand there falling into his eyes. All the sudden he leans further in and our lips connect. It felt tingly. I've felt this once before. I feel a tear escape my eye still connected by our lips. I realized what I was doing to myself. I quickly pull away. "S-sorry. I didn't mean to frighten you" he says frantically. "No. No this is my fault. I'm sorry. I can't do this" I take of his hoodie and shove it into his hands and run the rest of the way home. I can hear him yelling my name. But I continue to run. I made it home and locked the doors. I ran upstairs ignoring everyone I just lay down and fall to sleep.
I wake up the next morning and get ready for school. Today I'm wearing blue skinny jeans with a black short sleeve loose crop top with my yeezes. This time I brought a hoodie with me because my app said it was going to rain again today. I put my headphones in and start walking to the school. I feel someone tap on my shoulder. I turn to see Jack. "Kate-" He starts. "Just leave me alone right now please" I put back in my ear buds and walk faster to the school. I get inside and go to my locker then my locker gets slammed shut. "Oops my bad" the boy with red hair from yesterday says. I just roll my eyes and re open my locker for it to be shut again. He then pushes me into the lockers "your little boyfriend isn't here to help you now" he says sounding cocky. No, I can't snap. Not at a new school. Not again. I go to walk away he grabs my arm and pushes me to the lockers again. That's it. I grab him by his collar and slam him into a locker and pin him there. "Listen you are going to leave me the hell alone or we are going to have a problem do you hear me!" I yell. Everyone fell silent. I throw him to the floor and stomp away. "Kate are you okay?" Jack says walking up to me. "I said leave me alone!" I say. And walk away. I feel like crying. The day went by fast. But then I realized I start at the dojo today. Crap. I walk to the dojo and change into my gi. I walk back out and see 6 people out on the mats. Rudy looks over at me and says "hey! Kate this is Kim, Jerry, Eddie, Milton and you know Jack. Welcome to your first class". "Hi" I say shyly. We got into a line and worked on a new form. Later, class ended and I quickly changed and said goodbye to everyone. I put on my hoodie because it was already raining. Why does it rain so much. I hear someone run up behind me. "Kate can we please just talk?" Jack says. "Jack I'm sorry I just can't do this" I say. "I'm sorry it's not your fault, I kissed you because I kinda like you, you are beautiful and smart and sporty and that's something I really like about you" I just turn and run as I am crying also. I hear him running behind me and yelling my name I try to pick up speed but I'm not used to running a lot anymore. I feel my body being tackled to the ground. I lay there and look at jack on top of me. I try to get out of his grasp but I can't. I struggle for a bit. "Jack please just let me go home" I say now uncontrollably sobbing. "Not until we talk. I want to know why you keep pushing me away" he says panting. "Fine" I say "I do like you but I can't, I've been through too much. I dated this one guy. He treated me like his queen for 2 years. He gave me anything I ever wanted and never hurt me. Until I saw him making out with my best friend. It hurt really bad. So I gave up on liking anyone I made myself a promise that I would push anyone away who got too close so I would never have to feel that way ever again." I finish. He looks at me with worry. He stands up and takes my hand to help me up.  "I'm so sorry. But you deserve so much better" he says. "I guess" I look down then look back up. He was looking. Down at me he looked as if someone just punched him in the gut. I look up go on my tippy toes and kiss him. We stay there for a minute. We pull away and look at each other and smile. "Kate can I be the guy who shows you what a real boyfriend is" he says still locking eye contact. I hesitate for a minute. "Do you promise not to hurt me?" I ask. He leans in again and kisses me. He pulls away. "Does that answer your question?" He says. I chuckle "yes". He hugs me then walks me the rest of the way home. We get to my front step. We stop and I hug him again. "Thank you" I say quietly into his chest. "Anytime". I pull away then walk inside. I'm soaked from being on the ground. Thanks a lot Jack. I walk through the living room as I get weird looks from my brother and mom. "Don't even ask" I say, I walk upstairs and decide to take a shower. I get out and change into sweatpants and a tee shirt. I lay down and fall asleep. I can get used to this. Hopefully.