Crazy For You- Tronnor fanfic

Chapter Twelve- Broken

Before I start the chapter, i would suggest these songs (Breathe Me by Sia or Say Something by the Great Big World) to listen to whilst reading, if you're worried about the music stopping just go to Listen On Repeat and they replay the song over and over again. They have an app to play the song if you're on mobile. Enjoy. (Before you think I am, i'm 100% not sponsered, I just think it would set the mood)

**Connors POV**

Life at the moment is perfect. I don't have the responsibility of O2l and I was with the person I feel as though i've loved him a long time, but never really classified it. "What are you thinking about?" Troye asked smiling. His sparkling blue eyes met mine and I blushed a little "You!" I said happily. I kissed him softly, still feeling that spark and got off the bed we were sitting on to take a shower. "Daylight is a'wastin!" I exclaimed shutting the bathroom door.

**Troyes' POV**

As he shut the door I laid down on the bed thinking of what we were going to do today. I really wanted to go on a picnic then cruise and explore with the windows down, music blasting, it was an absolutely gorgeous day with so much potential. Connor was amazing, his eyes, his great sense of humor, he's one of the loveliest humans I've ever come to know. Though, at the back of my mind I couldn't help but wonder how Tyler is doing. I moved onto another so quickly he didn't really get a chance to say goodbye. Not that it's a bad thing for me to have been so lucky to have Connor, because trust me he is honestly so indescribably perfect.

**Tylers POV**

Tears flowed down onto my pillow. The bitter taste of alcohol slid down my throat. The numbness as to what has happened finally wore off and all I feel is the pain. I ignored phone calls and texts, I had to film a video but I couldn't physically bring myself out of bed and act happy. I love my viewers and I need to be honest, I need to go on tumblr and tell people how I'm feeling. I started a textpost the title reading "Broken." "I haven't been okay. I was just going to try to pull myself out of bed and fake a smile and a happy attitude and give My People a video." Tears fell onto my laptop keyboard. "You all are everything to me, and being dishonest with everyone is not something I want to do. I feel as though it's not anyones fault except mine, so please don't go onto Twitter and hate on Youtubers." "I have let down the viewers that have nothing but to look forward to my videos every week." I couldn't see the keyboard through the blurred tears. A pain grew in my chest as I wrote the next line.

**Troyes POV**

"I hate myself for everything i caused." I sobbed as I read the next line off to Connor and he held me tight. His tears fell on top of my head as we silently cried. I caused this. I kissed Connor that night, I made another living person hate themselves. "This is my fault." My muffled voice said buried in Connors shoulder. He kissed the top of my said and said "It's gonna be okay, I promise." My phone rang. It was Korey.

**Koreys POV**

I slammed 60 bucks down on the table. I drove as fast as I could to Tylers from eating dinner. It was obvious he has been drinking, he'd never post anything like that without asking me about, or so I don't think. He had given me a spare key. I opened the door and found a messy apartment. There was wine stains on his carpet, something had to be wrong. I ran into the kitchen frantically calling his name. "Tyler?!" I ran into his room, Tyler was laying on the floor, face down, not moving. "Tyler??!" I yelled as I rolled him onto his back. He wasn't responding. I called 911.

**Troyes POV**

"We need to leave!" I yelled through the tears as I frantically packed my belongings. I couldn't believe he had alcohol poisoning. "I'm booking the nearest flight right now!" I finished packing and we got on the 14 hour flight back to California. The flight was spent crying as other passengers stared and Connor gave them a teary side eye. He held me, the whole time never letting go. "i'm sorry Tyler." I felt myself say many times. "It's okay, I promise." Connor said each time I had said sorry. It was my fault, im terrible, I should've never kissed Connor, I think I love Connor and I'd do anything for him, but for me to make a person hate themselves kills me deeply. A heavy weight sat on my heart crushing it every second I thought about Tyler, not knowing whether he'll live, not knowing whether I'll get to see the light in his eyes. It kills me that I may not ever be able to hear his Angelic laugh again. I broke him.