So we sat and cried and for almost an hour as he apologized for getting me caught up in something like this. He was telling me how much he love me and that he'd never felt this way about anyone before and he would do anything to make up for it . Yea I love him with all of my heart I really do but all that was going through my head was "you really just killed someone for this man , he is not the one for you , you have to get out of this relationship it is toxic you should never love someone to the point of committing murder just because someone slept with him" . After thinking to myself i told him "I love you to death Sonny and you know that and just the thought of loosing you is killing me like my heart is literally in pieces right now but I can't be with you it is not healthy for anyone to love someone the way that I love you". I got up gave him kiss told him I loved him and walked out of the door . As I closed the door I fell to floor and cried I literally felt like I was dying i felt as if when I walked out of that room I left my heart right there on floor with him .
