Deep Dark Poetry

Why?

What's wrong with me?
Why do I think of dying?
Why do I fantasize people dying?
What caused these issues
And why do they cling to me when I don't want them
Is there really a God above?
If there is then why isn't he answering me?
Why won't he help me?
Maybe I need to let go of something first
But what?
Should I try to help my father back on the path of God?
Is that why God's not helping?
Should I work on my relationship with my uncle?
Is that why He's not helping?
Why is He not helping me when I need him?!
I feel alone!
I hate this feeling more than ever!
Why won't it just leave?!
Why can't we burn the horrible feelings?!
I hate them!
They should leave
But how?