Unkempt

Emotions

I wanted to be just like her
How does it feel to be loved by you?
To have perfect sets of teeth
Or to have a beautiful flawless face?
I wanted you to admire me just like how you see her

But I want you to be happy
Even it breaks my heart
Shredding it into pieces

Every time you tell me about how much you love her
I start wondering how does it feel?
Maybe if its me I'll feel ecstatic
Maybe my heart will pound hard due to endless pleasure.

You always make her feel important
I hope I would feel the same way
Like how you treat her like a fragile porcelain
The way you held her in the breeze under the moonlight

Or how you kept her away from wolves in the forest
Such comforting, warm cuddles your ready to offer
Curious, how does it felt?

Day by day I try to numb my heart
From this dangerous emotion within
Keeping in my how this thing will bring me to jeopardy.