N i g h t m a r e s

Trauma's a bitch

Again with the nightmares, John lay awake staring at the ceiling. The nightmares became more vivid, darker, scarier... closer to reality. He wasn't trembling, however, he was full of rage. He realized it was the afternoon, the worse they got, the more he slept. Something he hated immensely, he scratched his hair, getting out of bed to get ready for work as a Tenno. His comrades didn't mind having a purple skinned operator, well mostly. Racism was still a thing in this year, some called him a freak, others used racial slurs. He could clearly remember hearing one of them say "If you get shot out there, I'll end you myself". It angered him how someone he was suppose to consider a comrade, was more than willing to leave him for dead on a planet out of pure bigotry. It left a rather poor taste in his mouth, but he had to look past that, as relations shouldn't matter between Tenno. The safety of the galaxies people mattered.

Pidge walked through the door, again getting back from his classes. He noticed John getting ready for work and kissed his cheek, hoping he'd be safe. He noticed the bags underneath John's eyes, nightmares again, he thought. He could see the exhaustion in his kitten's eyes, worried sick. "Be safe Johnny..." Pidge said as John drank his cup of coffee. "I'll be fine, baby" John said as he kissed his forehead and went off. Hours had passed, it was around 1 am, Pidge heard the door unlock and in walked John, tears streaming down his Galra face. He has his arms crossed and sat down on the couch, deeply chuffing and trying to silence his sobs. Pidge had heard him enter and hugged him, hoping his tears would stop. "What happened today,baby?" He whispered, tightening the hug he was giving his lover. "Pidge... Am I a monster?" John said whilst crying, Pidge could see the pain in his Kitty's eyes, he knew something had caused him to ask that question.

Pidge bit his lip and had a worried look on his face, "No baby of course not! You're a big fluffy kitten that's sweet and loving! What makes you think you're a monster?" John sighed and wiped away his tears, hoping to play it off as curiosity. ".. Just wondering is all." John put on a fake smile and Pidge wasn't buying it in the slightest. Pidge gently bit Johns neck and he let out a meow, "Baby you're lying. Someone called you a monster, right?" Pidge asked. John started to cry and buried himself into Pidge's chest with Pidge cradling his head. John replied sobbing, "Yes... There's some people I work with who think I'm lesser than they are..." He nuzzled himself closer to Pidge's chest. Pidge was angry at this revelation, they were hurting his kitty and he wasn't going to stand for it. "Johnny you're not a monster. They're the monsters for treating you as such, you never will be a monster. You'll always be my adorable kitty" he said.

John's mood slightly improved but nothing substantial, he went back to being depressed. "Johnny... If I told you I want you would you feel better?" Pidge asked, he could feel John's cheeks becoming red,warm and tender. "Maybe~" John replied, trying to hide his erection. "I'll run a bath and we'll go from there, mkay?" Pidge asked and John nodded. He kissed John on the lips and went to prepare the bath. John sat there fiddling with his claws for a minute or so before Pidge came back in a bathrobe with nothing underneath, he kissed John and led him to the tub, taking off his clothes and sitting in the tub. John took off Pidge's robe to reveal the beautiful body of his beautiful boy, Pidge blushed and giggled, cradling his head. "You like my body alot don't you? You're always calling me your beautiful boy, do you say that so I know you love me the way I am? Even if not... a woman anymore?" Pidge inquired, John buried his head into Pidge's chest and responded, "Yes.. Because you truly are a beautiful boy, if you identify as a boy, you're a boy. No argument to be made."

Pidge proceeded to turn off the bathroom lights and got in the tub with John, with John cradling Pidge. The only thing illuminating the bathroom was the neon lighting outside, it was beautiful, the room was a deep purple just like John's skin. He played with Pidge's hair and purred, nuzzling his hair and meowing. He felt warm, he didn't feel isolated. He felt that his nightmares, the hate he received, was lifted from him the moment he embraced Pidge. Pidge kissed his neck and scratched his chin, making him purr. He enjoyed seeing his kitty smile, it was one of the most beautiful things he had ever seen in his opinion. "I wish all this could stop. The nightmares, the hate, everything. I want you to be happy again baby~" Pidge whispered, not wishing to interrupt the silence of the room. John sighed and replied "I know, I do too. But we live in the real world". Pidge was disheartened and buried his face into John's arm. "I'm sorry it's like this, kitty." Pidge whispered. John kissed his forehead and stroked his hair.

Pidge began to lower his hand to other places however. He slowly grabbed John's dick and began to stroke slowly, John letting out a soft, aroused meow. "I said I wanted you, pumpkin.. They may not want you but your beautiful boy always will~" Pidge said, kissing John. He responded with a smile and moaned, acknowledging what Pidge said. "A~ah, faster baby~" John said, he began to fall asleep due to the warm bath and calmness of everything. When he came, Pidge swallowed it and curled up next to him. He got out the bath and dried off, putting on a shirt that said "best boy" and sat on the couch, waiting for John to get out. He soon followed, wearing a grey shirt and black pants. Pidge had a smile on his face, patiently waiting for a hug.

John wrapped his arms around Pidge and kissed him, he felt better when he was around him. Pidge's hair smelled like peaches, oddly enough. He purred and rested his head in Pidge's lap, with Pidge played with his Kitty's hair, knowing he felt better put him at ease.