Lost

Chapter 2~ Face Fears

Numb. That's what my non-existent ass feels like. After hours of sitting in the plane we have finally landed. Right now I'm sitting in the car with my mum and Carita and no word has come out of their mouths. That makes me more scared than anything. You see my mum and sister talk a lot, like a lot they are always talking no matter where or how things may be so them being quite scares me. I guess they don't know how to react now that we have moved back to the one place my joy was stolen from me. I know they really missed this place. Ma didn't have any friends back home or where we were since this is like home for us, I guess, but all her childhood friends are here and I know she missed them and is excited to see them again. I just hope she would just express her true feelings and not be so careful around me. She still has a life. She does have a right to happiness. I don't need pity. Not now .

"Honey?" My mum's voice bring me out of my thoughts " You okay?" She asks with her eyes full of concern. I just notice we're a block or two away from the place I used to call home. " I'll be okay" I answer her because to be honest I'm not okay, I'm not even close to being okay.
My mum stops the car and all the memories start rumbling through my mind. Nothing has changed really. Our house is still the same. It's actually looks like someone has been living here " Hey mum, did you someone to look after the place when we moved?" I asked my mum. The house is still the same colour but it looks like it's been newly painted.  The lawn looks freshly cut and there is not ounce of paper or dirt on the front porch. " No honey. I'm as surprise as you. I wonder who took care of it?" My mum answered " Maybe it was one of your friends mamie or it could be a super hot neighbour with a heart of gold" my sister said. "Hmm" was the only answer she got and that was from my mum.
I sll my bags from the back of the car and not so patiently waited for my mum to open the door because I'm really exhausted, jet lag and I just want to alone for a while. She open the door and we entered. Everything is the same. Nothing has changed, except for our pictures and my mum's ointments. " You two can have your old rooms back. Go ahead and unpack and settle in. All our things will be here by tomorrow and remember you both will be going to school tomorrow since I spoke with the principal already. Okay?" Yeah, sure. I'm excited"  answered Carita while I just nodded. " I'm going to my room now. Please don't call me down for dinner I'm not hungry and probably cause I'll sleep in till tomorrow." I told them as I made my way upstairs. A way I know too well. "Okay honey" I heard my mothers faint voice since I was already upstairs. Now I'm standing confront of my old room Andi can't seem to even open the door. I don't want to remember anything from my past. I don't want to relive anything. After sometime of convincing my self I finally open the door and entered. My bed is still there. I walked in deeper looking around.  As I moved to the window I remember that i always used to sit by it and watch out in the woods behind our house. It used to calm me and sadly it still has the same effect on me.
It's been almost two hours that I sat there thinking about how I'll have to face tomorrow.  Before I left things we terrible at school. I lost all my friends and all I got were looks of pity. I don't want that. I don't want to go out at all.

What if he is still out there?

Sorry for taking so long to update. I'll try to update weekly. And please do inform others also to read my story and help a starting girl out here😁.

Sorry also for the errors and if the story still doesn't seem that interesting and catchy enough.  We'll get to the good parts as soon as I get a hand of things.😌
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