The Boy WithThe Brownish Eyes 2

Chapter 11

D A N N Y ~ P O V
Tony back.....but not my tony....

My tony was I don't know....tony

This tony is......mentally and physically down

"Talk to me tell me everything" I beg him watching as he turned away from me

"I did yesterday" he say looking at me

I sigh looking down...maybe he doesn't want to talk to me anymore

It's my fault I pushed him away....it's my fault for everything

"No it isn't" I realized I said everything outloud

"Yes it is you won't even talk to me" now I'm whining but it's not intentional it's because I'm a freaking failure at everything

"Danny I want to talk but I don't know how to" now I'm whining

"I like boys and I like girls right see if I wanted a girl I can go get one but when I'm around a boy I just freeze up, it started when I met you I liked you ever since I first laid eyes on you I liked you for a long time Danny until I saw how you were so dumb no not dumb but you didn't really know much so I just pushed those feelings away and took it as your my brother and brothers don't love each other" he liked me?

"I like you too tony" I say smiling "no Danny I loved you as a lover not that way" Tony say laughing

"I love you" I say grabbing his hand "Danny you love me as a brother not as a lover it's okay I don't see you that way anymore" he say laughing

"Okay" I say shrugging "I mean I'm always here if you and Taylor don't work out" I say nudging him "I know which is scary" he say shaking his head smiling

"I guess after that I started to slip just lost myself badly especially after Australia I promise it wasn't any of fault it wasn't anyone fault and then when we came here I was pretty happy but then the feeling came back and I got sad and then we had to move away from you and I didn't want that at all I just got more and more sad until I realized I had depression and anxiety, and then my family turned on me well turned on us I just feel unloved I guess in the moment I lost my true self but I know I can never get that same person again" now he's crying actually tears, not the tears of happiness but the sad ones, the tears that you held in even if you cried a thousand times, the truth tears the ones that hurt the most

"Maybe letting go and facing your true heart helps relieve that pain, I know it's hard especially change it's okay to feel down but don't discourage yourself you gotta love yourself" I get up opening my arms

He falls into my arms burying his head into my shoulder holding onto me like o was gonna leave him

"Your the best person ever" he say squeezing me just maybe I feel his tears on my shoulder

"You and I, we can make it until the end nothing will come between us nothing can between you and I not even the gods or whatever the hell else is out there can take you away I promise tony" I say rubbing his back

"I don't wanna be like them, I don't" he wouldn't stop crying but it's okay, he's finally letting it all out

"Your not like Jenny, or bob, rob none of them I promise" I whisper holding him tight

"I miss them Danny I miss it when it was just us three against the world, I want my family again I want it all Danny" his voice sounded so broken

"I do too tony but I don't know how to fix it" I say shaking my head I nuzzle my head in the name of his neck

"I want Jenny again, I want my mom I want delilah I want everything back together can't you fix it" I can feel his heart aching

"I promise to fix it I'm going to put everything together again I will" I say rolling my eyes, I'm rolling my eyes because I'm crying and I didn't want to cry