Save Me

4

As we entered the large halls of Rosie's mansion Rosè started yelling.
" YAHHHHH, Jennie!!!!!"
" why are you yelling!" I whispered.

" what it's not like they can hear my calling in this big ass house." She replied.

True.

She continued yelling until another young and beautiful girl came down the stairs in sweats and messy hair.

" WHAT!" She asked in anger.
Then she saw me and her face softened.

" Hello..." she said as she gave a cute and innocent smile.

Ahhh she is so pretty.

" yo, this is Lisa. Lisa this is Jennie, my sister."
Wow her personality changed so quickly.

" Hello Lisa," she quickly said

" Hello," I waved back.

Rosè broke the awkwardness by cutting in and asking,

"wheres the doofus?" she asked Jennie as she gave her bag to one of the elder ladies in the room.

"ah, he just left you missed him."

"Oh, well it's fine, It's better if you don't meet him, he is just going to ruin your mood," Rosè said

"yeah he is soooo disgusting, he comes in our rooms just to burp or fart then leaves like a dumb idiot running in the halls," Jennie added rolling her eyes.

"Oh, I see," I said.

"What is his name," I asked.

"ugh, he is so dumb its even better if you don't know his name, just saying his name makes me want to barf," Jennie said I guess she really hated her brother.

"hey let's all watch a movie!" Rosè suggested as she pulled out some bags of popcorn ready made.

"yeah, and Lisa can tell us more about her," Jennie said as she got blankets a dimed the lights.

I just stood there, not knowing what to do since I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

Then Jennie and Rosè pulled my arms and lead me to the couch filled with blankets.

"HEY, if you want you can sleep here you can use our brother's room since the guest rooms are under construction, he will probably not come home tonight since he said he was hanging out with his friends in BTS. But I'm really sorry if you see some disgusting things in his bedroom. If you get too uncomfortable you can just come to sleep with me." Rosè suggested.

" YAH! She didn't even answer or ask her parents if she can stay!" Jennie scolded Rosè.

"Oh sorry, Lisa..." Rosè said with a glum voice.

"oh don't be Rosè, thank you for suggesting that, and I can stay at your house tonight because I live by my self-right now my m- no my guardian is in California right now," I said shaking my hands denying RNoahosè to not feel bad for asking me.

"thank you for being my first friends here," I said feeling elated to the fact that I can make friends...

"Oh, lets chose a movie to watch..." Jennie said.

we all agreed on watching 200 Pounds of beauty

"Woahsooooo, that was such a good movie, thank you for recommending it, Lisa," Rosè said.

" Oh, no problem..." I said in a monotone voice.

I actually only recommended the movie since I can emotionally relate to the characters on a real-life basis. I didn't get plastic surgery but after Ms. Minho basically adopted me I fell into a real hard point of my life, wondering why I was alive at that point. I wouldn't blame Minho-shi if she sent me back or abandoned me. I ate a lot, A LOT. I stress ate so much that it gave me asthma since there was much unwanted and unnecessary fat all around me. Once my lung collapsed and all I wanted was to die then and there.

"Let's go sleep, Rosè and Lisa" Jennie said with a big smile.

I nodded as Rosè and I got up to go wash up and sleep.

I can't possibly tell them about my conditions, otherwise, they will think bad of me and be disgusted by my past. They are way more in the higher class than I am. They will look down on me and tell everyone so I can just be bullied again.

" Let's go, Lisa! you're just sitting on the couch what are you thinking about?" Rosè laughed signaling me to come.

"oh its nothing," I said as I got up and walked toward Rosè.

Jennie showed me her brother's room. It was sooooo big what the fuck. it was the size of my one living room back at my apartment.

" Okay well Rosè went to wash her face, If you feel uncomfortable to sleep you can come sleep with one of us whenever. Well, I'm going to go sleep also so sleep well and have nice dreams" she said as she hugged me and kissed my head and left the room, leaving me alone in an unfamiliar room. I did feel uncomfortable but I didn't want to trouble the only people who will be my friends, or else they will get annoyed by me and leave me.

I looked around the room, no photos, but like to take photos of scenery's, really nice sense in fashion, not that clean, plays piano, LOVES GUCCI, just like Jennie unnie, has boxers on the fl- EWWWW WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! EW EW EW it's on the bed how am I supposed to sleeeppppejfiusdfs! FML ugh I have to move it in order to sleep on the bed.

I looked around the room to see if there was anything that I can grab it from, but the world is against me so I took my hand and picked the corners and lifted it and flung it across the room.

After it fell on the floor I sonic ran to the bathroom in his bedroom.... hOLy FuCK.

I entered the bathroom and there were more boxers on the floor...

I left the bathroom and DASHI RUN RUN RUN ran to the bathroom in the halls regretting not sleeping with Rosè or Jennie unnie.

I thoroughly washed my hands 4 times just to make sure. I went back to the room and I crawled into the bed trying to forget what just had happened. I closed my eyes and dozed off but at this point, I know what will happen after I sleep. I sleep but I have horrible dreams bringing me back to my past, the family rejection, the car crash, the abuse, the bullying, the pounds I put on, the self-harm, the depression, the suicidal, the lung collapsion, asthma, the inner monster...

I tried to wake up, but only my eyes were open. I couldn't move, I felt my tears roll down my cheeks as I knew this would happen and hated it, all the bad memories flowed through my brain. I hate it. I hate myself for like this. I tried to move so much even though I know I can't escape this horrid night.

Sleep paralysis sucks.