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Life

Have you ever felt like life is just not worth living well that's me it's not like I want to kill my self it's just there's nothing special about life you get to live but then you practically turn to be a baby and die every one dies it just why I think this is because I have leukemia and its not like I'm gonna live for long and plus there's other diseases life is nothing. Well here's my story

Well I'm Naomi I'm 19 years old and I got diagnosed when I was 12 my mom died because she had lung cancer ya it sucks and she died when I was 15 and she was always there for me and I live bye my self In a apartment and I go to therapy for that life is not worth living for because of my dad I told it to him and I have 1 sister that's married and 1 brother that's married and this is the beginning of my life

At therapy

"Ok sweetie how are you feeling today do you feel angry or sad have you tried to cut your self" the therapist said "ya all the time no I don't want to kill my self how many times do I have to tell you guys" I say really pissed "ok get your feelings out so no cutting how about water anything" she says in her calm voice witch got me really pissed "NO I said I don't and that's D.O.N.T want to kill my self if anything I want to live as long as I can I just said that one thing" I say really madly "well times up for this session ill see you next Wednesday bye" she says as I walk out. nobody gets me I want to live its just I said that because every one knows it.