At that time, the day we got closer. Get closer to precisely
Ordinary days began to feel colored, lonely hearts began to fill again.
You, who I once ignored, never thought that I was always faithful to accompany my life time.
Day after day we go through together, finally you express love, the thing that I waited for since then.
Yes, we start to establish relationships, me and you.
All of the words that were said at that time were soothing. Giving all the cradles of love, giving all the certainty that I always craved.
Which women can refuse. This heart melted at that time.
Feelings, heart, soul and body, we share to each other for reasons just trust and love, and so without being bored and tired, we always share in the warmth of love.
One day, he told me he will go back to his hometown, maybe for a while or not, we don't know, cause some condition.
Then we prepare for long distance relationships, both prepare and strengthen each other.
One month had passed, he was still here with me, hadn't left yet, glad it felt because it might not be possible.
But glad it didn't last long. Until where the heart begins to feel the difference in him, things that are usually done now change.
So cold, cold figure.
Not neglected negatively in my mind at that time, only confusion that led to the question. What is wrong ? Why ?
Again, he always makes sure there's no problem, alright, I pretend we're fine.
Me, as usual, always believed in all the words.
Communication began to go wrong, rarely ended the story but the messages were loud and as needed as I got.
My feelings are still the same, still believe we are fine.
The time came when the message was not returned by him.
I'm prejudiced, maybe he's busy or forgets, my thought as simply as that.
Shortly thereafter, the message ringing that I was special for him, right the message arrived.
HoHwever, which at first I thought the reply from the previous message, it turned out that the message of the body immediately made my hands and heart tremble.
e suddenly revealed that he didn't love me anymore. With 1 fuckin' message he ended all of my waiting so far.
Limp is not confused with my thoughts and feelings at that time. is this just a dream? I pinch my cheek, hurt..... no.... this is all real.
Again I hold my cellphone while I slowly read the message from him. Right he wants to end our relationship.
Firmly I holding back tears in the eyelids
Tears that were getting heavier wanted to immediately pour down my cheeks, my trembling lips wanted to immediately shout out my distrust.
As much as possible I still reply with reasonable questions.
Still, he decided to end our relationship, without asking me to approve it.
I am weak in love, still unbelievable, unable to read every word he makes
Even I'm not sure that this is it. People who are always proud of me, I love sincerely until now. Too evil and have the heart to say and decide all this unilaterally.
I was still trying hard, with the courage to reveal what was on my mind at that time and once again convinced him of the relationship that should last.
Again, he thinks everything is over, unfortunately for me it's not left.
Maybe even all the things we've been through together have been deleted in our memory
Is this too fast? yaa
I do not believe.
I never expected anything
The person I always loved without pausing turned out to hurt me this way.
My heart was broken, my feeling was messed up, my mind was boisterous, it was not necessarily a direction, my body was weak at once.
I received everything in a spacious manner, even though I still didn't understand the reason he gave.
Reasons that are too sudden to end this relationship.
All of them, the feelings and love that are still the same since the first, I now force it to disappear
difficult is difficult, remembering all the memories we always go through together.
I try to fight my feelings, with the power of prayer, because only praying can I do at that time.
do not be asked how much hurt is it, how to be left when you falling in love.
