little thoughts/stories

Thought 3

hurt..

H aving to constantly ask you where you're going who you're with because you made it to where I cannot trust you

U neasy feeling in my stomach when you leave to hangout with your friends... just like on the night of our 5 month anniversary

R epeating the same pattern every single time you go to work telling me you'll be home right after but instead going fishing downtown knowing damn well you aren't wearing your wedding ring...

T he truth... you don't want me you want to go out and cheat on me even though everyday you tell me " I love you so much you make me happy"

everyday you leave for work I expect nothing but the same you take off your ring "forget" to put it back on and you think I'm stupid I know damn well nothing fucking changes you make me insane I swear I hate this constant nauseous feeling I have every time you leave the house or the room I know your snapchat addiction your constant need to feed another girl's self-esteem blinded by the fact of you doing this ruining mine I already have very little left you have pushed me into the negatives. I cannot look in the mirror anymore because of you because of the words you have said to me I no longer see the bright life loving happy girl I used to see now I see a fat ugly stressed girl with bags under her eyes and acne all over her face because she is so stressed. If you wanted to destroy me and my ability to love you have won there's another girl you have destroyed... I hope you're happy knowing I'm not.

I wish I could just smile through it but I no longer can you will get your karma come January just you wait.