our poems

5

Im not worth it,

No one cares about me,

So why do I keep putting ymself through this pain,

This suffering,

Becausre maybe just maybe,

I... I deserve it,

Mybe I don't deserve to be happy,

Maybe I never have,

I didn't want to hurt you,

I still don't,

But I can't keep living like this,

This pain and agony,

Getting up out of bed is a struggle,

Doing simple tasks makes me tired,

I'm tired of Everything,

Tired of hurting people around me,

Tired of hurting you,

I don't deserve you,

I don't deserve to die,

I deserve to suffer,

I don't deserve happiness,

I never have,

I never will,

And that's how it will stay,

Me strugguling to get through each day without talking to you,

I just wanna suffer in silence,

Because then when I lose you I won't regret dying,

I can't live without you,

I lose you,

I lose hope,

I lose all my happiness,

All my worth,

All my motivation to live,

I'll die,

I won't be able to continue living my life,

Knowing you won't be with me,

Knowing I would never be able to hold your hand,

To hug you,

Cuddle you,

Kiss you,

I'll die alone,

Everyone one will leave,

They will forget about me,

Going on with thier lives happier then ever,

Because I just fuck everything up.

             -----StarSong