Breakdown (SasuNaru Doujinshi, BOYxBOY)

PART 1

I walk at the shore and the waves of the cold ocean water hit the lower part of my feet as I keep going. I look up at the starry sky, and I stop. My chest feels tight and my heart feels broken. I fall down to my knees in the wet sand and hide my face in my hands as tears now come out from my eyes. This just can’t be real. Only two days ago, they were alive.

I pic up a photograph from my pocket and let my tears fall down on it. My whole world feels empty without them.

“Sakura.. Naruto.. I’m sorry that I couldn’t help you..” I cry, all lost in sorrow.

I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder and quickly turn my head, hoping for it to be Naruto or Sakura. But of course it’s not. They’re dead, all of us saw what happened, but by that time it was already too late. They fell off that cliff with a huge rock falling after them. They couldn’t possible have survived the fall, especially not since that rock probably landed on top of them.

I stand up and look at Kakashi. Beside him I see Iruka too.They probably followed me here. How annoying. I wipe my tears away and look down on my feet, I feel miserable. An eighteen year old boy should be able to handle this much better.

“What do you guys want..?” I ask and sob a little. Pathetic.

Kakashi pick up something from his pocket and hands it to me, and I cover my mouth with one of my hands as I almost break down immediately. I’ve never felt this ruined before.

“I’m sorry, Sasuke-kun. But this was the only thing we could find..” Iruka says as I take Naruto’s and Sakura’s forehead protectors from Kakashi’s hands.

They’re full of scratches and buckles, and they’re pretty dirty, but I don’t care. I hug them hard with both my hands and hold them tight towards my chest, right where my heart is located. I let my tears fall, I don’t care if Kakashi and Iruka sees me like this anymore, I just can’t hold back my feelings. Not like this. I shake my head and begin to run, I need to be alone. They call after me, but I don’t care. I just have to get away from everything.

After approximately 15 minutes, I stop to catch my breath. Sweat drip from my forehead and my legs are shaking so bad that I can barely stand up. Now, not only my heart hurts, but my lungs too, and my chest feels even tighter as I try to breathe normally. I hold their forehead protectors in front of me and look at them, still crying like a little baby. They were the only close ones I had left, the only ones I could fully rely on. And now they’re gone, just like that.

I fall to my knees as my legs are unable to hold me up any longer, it stings, and as I look down I notice that they’re bleeding, but I don’t care. “I’m sorry I failed you, Naruto.. I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise..” I weep.

I hear steps further away, but as broken as I am, I don’t bother to look up.