Signed off. Detox
Day off
Get it out of you.
I keep some water inside an arm’s reach. For someone else, the time away and the cleanse might do. How do I express that character evisceration is my goal? It’s no easy operation - at heart, I doubt my skill with the scalpel.
Harakiri!
The alien samurai cuts down the dancer and then falls over himself.
This is, at present, my greatest display of control. Sweat builds at my palms and the pad becomes less stable. I could never keep the same sharp focus for reality’s vexations, self-inspired or otherwise. I’d lose balance, lose patience, and then the fight.
..
I must be getting better though. Today’s defeat didn’t ruin the console.
~VMMMMMMMMM~
3 Missed Calls
+1 Voicemail message +1 Message
Hey Castle,
You okay? X
I read her message and put the phone back down. Anyone calling will have to wait.
What can I say? If I’m midway through ‘recovery’ I’m still a few ways sick. Quarantines are set for the safety of those outside it, so why assess the bridges now?
I finish another cup of water.
Before refilling it, I go down to the window and look around. Maybe, a cleanse is all I need. I’ll raise my head from the sand and I’ll see blue skies; but even if it rains I’ll feel better inside. Seppuku is a long way to restore one’s pride.
I’ll just eat clean and practice some discipline of the mind.
