A Nibble Won't Hurt {Supernatural Fanfic}

"Goodbye, Nala"

"You're staying in the bunker and that's final!" Dean shouts at me. I hiss at him trying to run outside to my Awakener. "I need to protect him!" I yell running under his legs which were wide open and I run to the garage. Sam sees me and seemed a bit disappointed in something but I ignore what feelings he feels.

"Awakener!" I shout sitting at his feet and getting in a guarding position. "Nala," Sam sighs, suddenly saddened. "Awakener, please! I need to protect you!" I scream. Sam looks up then does a small nod and suddenly Dean grabs my feet and Sam grabs my wrist picking me up. I thrash around but I try not hurt my Awakener. "Awakener! Please! I need to protect, it was what I am made for!" I scream. They walk down the stairs down the hallway while I jerk myself around and I scream. Tears reach my eyes and I continue to move. 

"Henry! Stop it, please, I need you!" I scream for my Awakener who uses another person to carry me by my feet so they can trap me in my room so I don't come with him on his mission. "Nala, stop this, please go willingly" he coaxes holding onto my wrist tightly knowing I won't hurt him though. We arrive at my room and the man takes me in his arms and throws me in locking the door. I sit alone and I curl in a ball licking the hand I fell on. 

"Henry! Stop!" I scream and I feel Sam and Dean stop walking and sit there tense. Sam finally looks at me and sees the fear and pain in my eyes. Dean drops my feet and Sam pulls me close making me wet his shirt with my ears. Then in a burst of anger, that I will regret, I push him away and I hop into my room. I run to my bed curling in a ball.

I peak out to see Awakener's hurt face and he turns to Dean who just flows with regret as well. "Goodbye Nala" Sam whispers knowing I will hear him. They walk away with slight hope I will follow. But I do not. I stay in my bed trying to rid the memories of Henry Winchester.

The department of my Awakener causes my body to reject food so now I stare at the sandwich I made but my stomach tells me it's not worth it as I will throw it up later. I then wander around the bunker till that gets old and I sit on a chair.

Another day without my Awakener and my body have finally decided to stop growling knowing I won't and can't eat. My limbs feel a bit weak but I can still manage to last the full week.

The third day of separation and I look at all the food I made. I have burgers, waffles, bacon, tuna, and salads, but none seem to spark hunger so I leave it on the table. While walking around I find Awakener's room and I walk in sniffing around. His scent sends calmness to my heart. I crawl over to his closet that used to be a Men Of Letters. I sniff his clothes till I find a flannel with the strongest scent of him and I rip it from the hanger onto the floor. I pick it up and slide it over the shirt Dean bought me.

The flannel ends just above my knees and I wrap my tail around my waist to keep it up as I crawl to Awakener's bed and curl up in the Awakener's scent.

My mind is set to stay in Awakener's scent so I don't go insane. I can almost try and imagine he is with me, he is petting me and never actually left me. My ribs seem to now start showing a bit but I can't force myself to eat. I feel weak but the water I dragged into Awakener's room helps a bit.

With a weird sound, I sense Castiel in the bunker. He walks around with his feet echoing throughout the bunker. He looks for me but can't find me in my usual places. I try to stand to go get him but when I jump off the bed my energy decides to fly away and I fall on the floor hard.

Castiel hears the noise and rushes over to Sam's room to find me on the floor pathetically. He runs to me and kneels down checking me over. "Nala, have you eaten since Sam left?" Castiel asks. I shake my head trying to get up but am too weak to.

"Your cat side, you need Sam to feel starvation or you feel worthless" Castiel sighs picking me up and holding me, bridal style to the bed. "I have also felt this before when Dean left me I didn't feel the need to fight anything that fought me" Castiel mumbles placing me on Awakener's bed and walking to Awakener's closet and taking down his biggest shirts and walking back over to me. "Missing Awakener" I huff curling in a ball when Castiel puts Awakener's shirts all over me. "I've heard that when you're near your loved one's stuff, cats can feel safe like they are there," Castiel says making Awakener's shirts into a blanket for me.

"I will be back tomorrow, if you get worse I will get Dean," Castiel says and with a flap of air, he is gone.

Day six, the mirror in Awakener's room shows how much my stomach betrayed me. My ribs show as I try to move and for water but my weak state stops me from doing so. Castiel never came back and I hope he never does because then he will worry Awakener and that will cause me to fail at my job. I had successfully dragged more of Awakener's things to the bed. I hit buttons on the radio causing music to play that a funeral would have.

I curl in a ball when I do hear Castiel and I hide in my burrow of stuff so he can't see me. "Nala, Sam sent me to check on you," Castiel says as if he never came before. I then remember the different scents and realize it wasn't Castiel, the last Castiel had no tie.

I stay still until Castiel picks up stuff in curiosity until he finds me under it all. He then hurries to move everything away and places a hand against where my ribs would be, feeling the how much detail he can take.

"Nala, have you eaten?" He asks. I huff looking up and seeing Castiel's face. "Yes, Cas" I give a weak smile until he picks me up and feels how light I am. " You are too light to have been eating, I'm getting Dean," he says. I lift my head and scream "No Castiel!" But he ignores my plea and flies away. I use my little strength to crawl out the room slowly taking Sammy's clothes with me.

In an empty room and I make myself a small bed. The room fills with his scent and my nerves calm down. I crawl back to the room for more of Sammy's stuff and water but right before I could walk in a feeling of pain overwashes me. I curl in a ball holding my stomach.

When I look up I see Castiel, Castiel without a tie. "Nala, you need to eat, you gotta eat Nala!" He says. I look to the other side of me to see Dean, Dean with black hair. "You can't eat without my brother Nala, no no no, it would be wrong, because if he suffers then you should too!" Dean shouts angrily at me.

I look between the two, wanting Awakener to stop the curse. The curse of separation. I can't be separated from my Awakener for more than a couple hours or my mind makes me torture myself by hunger and hallucinations, but half the time I can't tell a difference.

I look between the two, they both hold their arms out for me to reach. I then look at Castiel, the cure, the savior, but he means surrender. I then look at Dean, the torturer, the continuier, but he will help me punish myself for letting Awakener go. I start to crawl towards Dean and Castiel's face turns hurt.

"Nala!" The real Dean shouts. I look at real Dean and I then look back at Dean with black hair. He disappears and I feel tears prick my eyes. "Come back! Come back I need you" I scream continuing to crawl. "Help me get Awakener back Dean! I want him back! He is dying, he is hurting!" I bawl my eyes out. My heart hurts believing the words that I make up in my mind.

"She's having hallucinations! Grab her before she hurts herself" Real Castiel shouts. Cas and Dean try to grab me but I scream and cry thrashing about and clawing them with my claws. "Awakener! Awakener will be dead because of me, I wasn't there! I need to be there for him before the gun gets him!" I scream as my mind creates the sound of Awakener Screaming for me while demons hold him and laugh.

"He's alive Nala! He's alive!" Real Dean says as blood drips down his arms from my claws. Then I hear a gun go off and Awakener's screams are gone. I scream to the top of my lungs for him, needing him. Dean pins me to the floor while Castiel goes to get someone but I focus my thoughts on thinking Awakener is dead.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I failed, I failed, I'm a failer. A disappointment, he said so, he said so! Awakener! Awakener!" I cry. Dean grunts to hold me down as I cry for the loss I think I've had.

"Nala?" I hear Awakener's voice ask.