Random Thoughts

#5

It has been a very long time since we decided to just be friends. It was the hardest decision I have ever made. I wanted to let go but I don't want to loose you. You are all I ever wanted.
The moment I told you that we should just be friends was the day I have broken my heart into so many pieces. It was the day I decided to be the better person by doing the right thing. It was the best thing to do - just be friends. I thought that it was much better than not being in each other's life and all.
At first I wasn't really sure if I was doing the right thing because I was about to give up the person that I wanted the most, the person I was so much willing to spend the rest of my life with. It was heartbreaking. My heart was in so much pain as I say those words.

Months have passed since that fateful day. We have been friends ever since. We have been very good to each other. But sometimes I still think that maybe just maybe one day you will come back to me and tell me that you still love me. That you still want to be with me. That it is I, that you want be your present and your future. But I know that its never going to happen.
Seeing you with the person you chose to be with, how happy you are with him, I know I made the right decision. I can't stand in the way of your happiness. I want you to be happy and as long as you are, even if I'm not part of it, I will be.
You are and always will be that someone who is really special to me. I will always be here for you.

(undated)