Alex just broke up with me and I feel so numb it was horrible. He broke up with me because he found someone better. Someone new. We were dating for two years and he flushed it down the drain. I used to do drugs before I met Alex but he helped me stay away from it. I text my druggie friends and ask them if we could smoke and they said hell Yeah. I get ready with tight black ripped skinny jeans and a sweatshirt and head over to their house. They welcomed me in and we went to their room and in the room are all the people I missed getting high with. We grab the weed the sourins, the novos, the bongs, the bowls. You name it we got it. We each grab what we wanted. I wanted weed and a sourin so I grabbed both. We all took pictures and I posted these two to Instagram
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And I got a ton of comments about how smoking is bad for you and blah blah blah. At the moment I didn't care what people thought. Alex commented on my post too. He commented "I thought you were better than this" and I replied with "old habits are hard to break during hard times" and I started smoking some more until I couldn't. I stopped smoking at 3 am. I started at 7pm. And I smoked a lot of weed and from my sourin. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get sick later. But I could care less. The reason why I'm upset over our breakup is because not only did he wash two years down the drain. He got with my sister. Which was fucked up from both of them. I sobered up real quick as thoughts of Alex and my little sister dating. I went back into the bathroom where I left the weed and started smoking some more. I decided to take a video of me smoking and doing tricks and it looked like this girls video from Latina beauty. I posted and a lot of people yet again were saying that drugs are bad for you and blah blah blah and Alex's dumbass commented again asking where I was. Being high off my mind I told him where I was and he said he was coming to pick me up. I forgot to take alex out of my bio so I did and he already did too. I was hurt. I started smoking from my sourin because my blunt was finished. I heard knocking at the door and let one of them get it. The ones that are awake. I was still smoking filling the bathroom with smoke. It was like I was hot boxing. I started laughing at my stupid thoughts and heard the door open.
"Someone's here for you" they said moving to the side revealing Alex
"Hello there" I said continuing to smoke
He snatched the sourin out of my hand and sat on the ground. I was in the bathtub so it kinda worked.
"Why?" He asked
"I couldn't handle the pain, I needed to be numb" I told him looking up at the light looking like this
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"Why did you leave? What happened to us?" I asked looking at him in the eyes now
"I left because my manager wanted me to twist it up so I can get more fame. I'm sorry I didn't tell you" he told me as tears fell down his face
"You- I- what?" I said so confused
"Yeah. I still love you tho" he told me
"I love you too" I said giving him a kiss
"But I can't" he told me pulling back
"Of course you can't" I said getting prepared to roll another blunt, "leave. Idk why you Came for me if you 'can't" I said quoting him and he actually left. I scoffed and smoked another blunt. I decided to go for a drive to get everything else off my mind. I know I'm high and I hope I get into a bad car crash. I was driving as fast as I could down the streets of Nevada and I saw a random deer in the middle of the road. I swerved too fast and my car started to flip in circles. After that all I could see was black
