(i'm changing the way i write)
flash back to chapter 8°
shawn: i'll see you in 5 beautiful
i went to my room and laid on my bed
is this really a good id-
my thoughts where i interrupted by shawn walking through my door with dripping clothes
"why are you wet?"
"it started to rain as i walked over here"
i mumbled an oh before turning over on my bed so i couldn't see him anymore
"where are the blankets"
"right outside my door in the closet there should be pillows in there too"
"thanks"
i lay there
BOOM
damn thunder is scary as fuck
"are you okay"
i roll over and look at shawn
"i'm kinda scared"
i looked away
"you're gonna be okay"
"thanks"
i rolled over again and fell asleep
2 hours later
BOOM
i wake up to thunder with a jump
"shawn"
i look over to the floor and he's sleeping peacefully
"shawn!"
i say louder
"WHAT!?"
he shouts
"i'm scared, please come up here"
he doesn't hesitate
"thank you"
i began to drift to sleep with my head on his chest
"anything for you baby"
was the last thing i heard before i was dead to the world
next day
i woke up in someone's arms
"good morning"
"hi"
i look away so he doesn't see me blush
"we have to go to school you know"
"don't remind me"
i groan and get up
"did you bring clothes for today"
"yea i'll go change in the bathroom"
"okay"
he left the room and i change into a oversized sweatshirt with the word "nike" on it with black leggings and some white vans
"ARE YOU ALMOST READY"
shawn screams echoed through the house
i tell him i need to brush my teeth and go pee before i leave and he nods
/skip car ride\
we arrive at school and once again EVERYONE was looking at ME but not just me shawn too once i get to my locker i realize why
there's a picture of shawn entering my house with the words
"he never left"
then there was another picture and it was us leaving my house this morning with
"HOE" & "SLUT"
on it
i rip the papers off and leave shawn standing there i rush to first and i sit down getting looks from everyone
fuck it, fuck this, fuck life i am now 'the slut' for 11 grade what a shame that i'm still a virgin
the bell rang to go to 2 i was kinda happy and nervous
i walked in and of course shawn saved me a seat but i couldn't take it because of everything going on i sat where i sat yesterday next to zion
zion arrived and sat next to me
"i heard the rumors, don't think they're true but i wanted to hear it from you. Are you Nicole, sleeping with Shawn?"
i sigh
"no i'm not sleeping with shawn, zion. why would he want me? i'm ugly, worthless, the slut of 11 grade EVEN THOUGH IM A FUCKING VIRGIN IM THE SLUT"
i may have said the last part a little to loud everyone was looking at me with shock
"nicole"
i heard from behind me and i knew it was shawn
"WHAT SHAWN?!? do you like everyone thinking we are sleeping together? cause last time i checked you hated me cause "i stole your sister" well guess what? i would rather be dead then go to this garbage can with snakes and fake ass bitches! yea you heard me i wanna kill my self but no one would care"
then it hit me no one would care
before i realized it i wasn't in class anymore my legs had lead me down the hall and out the front doors of the school
my phone keeps buzzing but fuck it
suddenly my phone is on the ground in pieces and it didn't phase me i kept walking until i was home
if you don't know the movie cyber bully the main character posts a video of herself before she tries to commit suicide we'll i did something similar
"hello everyone i'm nicole and this is my final goodbye, to everyone that's ever hurt me i hope you enjoy your life with me gone."
posted.
i walk into the bathroom
"sleeping pills , sleeping pills, AH sleeping pills"
i took and hand full and gulped them down and just sat on the bathroom floor with the door unlocked so anyone could find me
blink
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everything is black.
shawn's pov
"yo did you see the video your little girlfriend posted after yalls argument?"
"no"
"watch it"
play
"hello everyone i'm nicole and this is my final goodbye, to everyone that's ever hurt me i hope you enjoy your life with me gone."
my eyes started to water
i pull out my phone
"AALIYAH"
i screamed
"we have to go"
i rushes out of class and ran, ran as fast as my legs carried me
i got to her house and the door was unlocked i walked upstairs into her room she's not there
FUCK
i ran to the bathroom and i went to knock and the door opened showing a lifeless body on the ground
"FUCK"
i bawled
i grabbed her into my arms and ran outside
"911 what's your emergency"
"my girlfriend is unconscious she tried to commit suicide and i think she is dead please, please help me she's the love of my life i don't know what i would do with out her"
"okay sir i have someone ready to come they should be there in 5-8 minutes"
"WHAT WHY SO LONG SHE NEEDS TO STAY ALIVE"
"sir they are in a rush i'm sure she'll be okay"
"okay"
i hear sirens
they pull up infront of me with her in my arms
"are you a family member"
"no but i'm her boyfriend"
"okay hop in"
"thank you"
i feel bad for lying but i do care about her this is all my fault i should've grabbed her i shouldn't have laughed as she left i'm so stupid
...to be continued...
