Too Much

Until Then...

I woke up to the sound of glass and silverware being thrown downstairs. The Echoing voices I heard that was filled with hatred was voices I heard way too much were my parents.

"So your just going to shipped him away to a school just for being to his self Raymond?".

"Patricia as much as you want to stand there and fucking interrogate me for being hard on the boy he a wimp... a chump a pussy for crying out loud ... he need to be tougher!".

As I crept down the stairs to see my Mom stepping closer to my dad with her manicure French tip finger nail and pointed at the bridge of his nose.

"Ryan is a child... my child our child for Pete sake's can't you see he not sociable why must you treat him like your still in the army Ryan is normal damn it."

As my father tended to grab his suit case he threw a pathlet on the Breakfast table as he walk to the door I bend down to not be seen then he left.

I step further down stairs to see my mom hands on her head shaking her head.

"Mom...what was Dad talking about?. That got him so angry?".

I sat down and read the pathlet . then look at my mother facial expression .

"Oh you know him sweetie he always babbling bout something ...or nothing it was just small talk".

"It was bout' me mom again...Wasn't it?." I look at before she went in the kitchen as I waited for her to respond she sat down slowly and grab my hands in to hers.

"Ryan ... your Dad believe you need to interact with kids your aged and like different things you like and looked before you say something and much as I typically hate the idea of you going you must the school is amazing and I believe you will like it".

I smack the table and stood up and look her in her eyes with disbelief of what I was hearing the women who raise me along with the man who puts me down she never once agree with dad never taken the side of his for nothing.

"WHAT!. Mom You can't it's the beginning of my Sohpmore Year you can't ".

" Ryan please calm down the school nice it all the way in Chicago and it would be wonderful you never went anywhere outside of mobile Alabama

Just think about what opportunities you can have baby".

I look at her then back down at the table as I mumble my question.

"When I'm leaving?".

She sigh the held my hand once more in her tiny prune wash finger.

"Tomorrow".

I shook my head and proceeded up stairs to get freshen up for school. no intention of putting anything fancy on who at "Donovan High" to impress ?.

After doing my basic routine grabbed a gluten free muffin and headed out the door I stood there and waited five minutes until I seen Ms. Daniels drive to my stop

I calmly step on the mento smelling bus and sat calmly in the middle.

As I wrote in my self explain journal to fill in my daily thoughts for the day I felt like everything I ever had bottle inside were expressed on the paged.

September,16,2014.

Ryan Thoughts.

"Were all perpetrated as Human Beings must one have to walk like a HUMAN BEING. And act as one but all Human Being are snipped and de Cloned to originated being chose and picked upon makes being different far more then what we are why must females be classified as weak because they are more likely to have feeling?. Why are Males be Classified as Innogrant Dogs for having a idea of being loved by many why should emos and Goths be shine as devils when there heart are sweet why must Easy Girls bee shone disgusting because she been raped by someone closed. Question no one seem to ask no one seem to know the answer so we all sit here juding until then.

It's just a matter if time when everything comes to light.