Longing for Love

Loving recap

Waking up a distant morning as if it was yesterday. I was just school kid who had learned about love only through movies and animated cartoons. Never the less true love did happen. On the other side no one gets to see what happens after the princess movie. Truth is that in real life only offers conditional love and not unconditional. In love we fail to see the important parts called the little things. This happens most when we have spent long time with another human being and it becomes monotonous. Sometimes we stop doing the things we did when we where in love and some times that leads to a break up. Then again my story is little different but more of the same love stories that we try to comprehend at a daily basis.

"For those at home reading at home I write this because in some way I love you too"- Juanchi

Hello I forgot to introduce myself my name Is Adem...

My long for love started as a flower I was only blooming at my eleventh grade. When I was just wanting to at least understand what love was. Chubby belly never told I look cute or good by anybody. So at that age we thing we may look a little off. Maybe weird or a bit dumb. I made friends but I was out of my sad state. Usually I got involved with people with problems in their lives or their house hold. Just  because I felt some type of calling to help people around me and build them up. So from an Introverted teen I started to break out of my shell. From my now fuzzy memory (chuckles). I remember a story that made me believe in love. This is the story of Adem and Rebecca.

At first Adem the chubby guy I told you about earlier he started being friend with a tiny senior (12 grader) called Noir. She had many problems, family, toxic friendships and relationships at that point I thought to my self, how do I help this human being, I acted mature and very moralistic. When I really was just following my gut. Noir and me had a toxic friendship and It was my first time noticing something was off. At some point during the year Noir left to a school trip in Orlando and me well I started working more on my self esteem. Started thinking more positively so I can help others more. In this period I wrote my first Ideal List of my future wife. I loved myself so much that I thought my best friend, my wife had to be exactly like me because I if I loved myself I should be with someone almost like me.  Two months passed and I got In to a retreat weekend. Here bizarrely I was told that Rainbows are gods promises. I left there with more questions than answers. So I prayed In church and I felt a surge through my body and heard that what was promised for me would come soon.