[English] Perfect

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All of his friends are already gone home. Today was his turn to tidying things.

Copter was locking the studio room when he received a message.

Are you done?

I am outside.

Just a bit more P'

I had cleaning duty today.

Okay, I'm right in front of the gate.

Copter didn't reply anymore. He better quickly going back to his classroom to take his bag and come out so he could meet Kimmon who's already waiting outside.

It's been two weeks since that night. Kimmon finally wants to go outside and even offering to pick him up from campus.

That night surely is a nightmare to Kimmon. Copter wouldn't fully understand it but, seeing the emptiness in Kimmon's eyes was hurting enough for him.

Nothing could relieve Copter more than Kimmon, who locked himself up in his apartment, was at least still willingly to talk to Copter. The older guy said that he will needs time to be alone, and Copter understand that.

However, Copter still came everyday to check on Kimmon's condition and make sure that he ate. Despite the fact that Kimmon didn't even go out from the bedroom, Copter was relieved to found an empty plate every next morning.

So, when finally Kimmon gave him a call this morning asking what time will he go home so he could pick him up, Copter was nothing but confused.

Well, of course he's happy that Kimmon's finally decide to come out of his cave. He just didn't expect it to be like this. Kimmon's voice this morning even sounds normal to his hearing.

With all those thought in his mind, Copter walked past the gate. He instantly spot Kimmon's white car with it's owner leaning to it.

"P'Kim?" He called out.

Kimmon turn his face to Copter, then a faint smile form to his face. He bends down, catching Copter's lips with his.

Copter return the kiss, it felt rather bitter. Kimmon pulled away a little, he whispered. "Let's go home Ter."

Copter reaches out to Kimmon's hand, intertwined their fingers. He holds it tight. Kimmon who's about to open the car door for his lover turn his body so that now they're facing each other.

"Copter? What's wrong?"

Copter looks up to meet Kimmon's eyes. He releases his fingers then warp his arm around Kimmon's neck, making the taller man to bend down again. He whispered to his lover's ear. "I'm here for you P'Kim."

Kimmon fell silent for a second before he put his arm around the younger's body. Hold him tight as if his life depends on it.

"I should've gone home that day." He muttered.

"I shouldn't stay at the restaurant that night. I should've come home to them."

Copter caressing Kimmon's back softly. He says nothing, letting Kimmon to cry his heart out.

"I could've protected them if I was there... I've lost them now... It was all my fault."

Deep down Copter want to shout out that it wasn't Kimmon's fault at all. But he knows, nobody could completely change the mind of a person who's blaming himself.

All he could do was being there for Kimmon. Telling him that everything will turn out right. He will always be with him.

"P'Kim... Your family wouldn't want to see you down like this..."

"I know... I know it... I-I..."

Copter pulled away from Kimmon's hug. He framed his lover's face with both his palm, brought him closer as he looks straight into those hurtful eyes. He tiptoes to reach Kimmon's forehead and planted a light kiss there.

"This might sound selfish but, P'Kim, I don't like seeing you trapped in the dark, regretting over something that's out of your control. Death, isn't something we could avoid. Not you or I or your family knows that those robbers would break into your house that night."

Copter took a deep breath as he starts to wet his own eyes. He hugs Kimmon again, tighter than before, he whispered.

"But it's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry. I will be by your side P'Kim. I will not leave you. So, please know that... That you don't have to carry it all alone by yourself."

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