Day #4
dim·pleDictionary result for dimple/ˈdimpəl/nounplural noun: dimples1.a small depression in the flesh, either one that exists permanently or one that forms in the cheeks when one smiles.verb3rd person present: dimples1.produce a dimple or dimples in the surface of (something)."a sucking swirl dimpled the water"
The word of the day is actually perfect because tiger has the most cutest dimples ever. Like his smile just brightens up my whole day. People don't understand why I like him. Sometimes, I don't even understand why. Sometime he can just be such dick, and other times he can be so sweet and cute. He pisses me of so much but at the same time, I cant stay mad at him because there's just something about him.
I hate how people just judge him so quickly. I mean yeah he sucks but I wish people could see him the way I do. He acts so shy around me, and he's always trying to get me laugh. But sometimes i'm scared that he's gonna hurt me. Like i'm already in so deep with him. I'm not dating him but doesn't mean it won't hurt just as much. Pretending to not like him sometimes is so hard. People come up to me and they are like, " You still like him", and I say no. Even though i'm lying to myself and them. But sometimes I think that pretending not to like him is the easy way out because then eventually i'll actually end up not liking him. But it never works. I've tried so many things to get me from crushing on him so hard but nothing works. I'm not saying liking him is a bad thing. It's just that every one has their own little opinions about him and i've so heard so many things about him. They are all like, oh he's not worth it or oh he doesn't even like you and what not.
But isn't it my choice to decide if I should like him or not?
I know I have to stop letting people get to my head. There is so much things i like about him..........
Pros Cons
His smile Homophobic
He's funny Mean sometimes
He's smart F-boy
Smell good Confusing
Got style Hates my friends
Dimples
Tall
Cute hair
Deep voice
But Most of all, I like how he makes me feel. When i'm around him and i'm just laughing and he's smiling, he makes me feel safe. Like it feels like if we were dating he'd protect me. Sometimes I just sit down and imagine how it would feel if he hugged me. I know he likes me back but sometimes he can be so confusing and I hate that. I wish he would be the one to tell me not my friends hearing him saying it. But My friends don't like him. And they mean a lot me. Even orange, even though we weren't that close back in 2018, I still like being around her sometimes, and she was a big part of my life back in. I just want them to like him but that wont happen. I think that's why I can't tell him and why i'm so afraid for him to tell me. My parents don't know so my besties mean so much. Their opinion matters so much. And the fact that they don't like him makes me take like 2 steps back. I'm not letting them decide my love life, but i'm not gonna not listen to their opinions.
Anyways, today I was walking to gym and I heard him talking to his friends and he was like, "my curls poppin." I don't know, I thought it was cute cause he loves him hair so much.
We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down
You and I both have to hide
On the outside where I can't be yours and you
Can't be mine
But I know this
We got a love that is homelessWhy can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yoursIt's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face
But we know this, we got a love that is homelessWhy can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yoursI don't wanna live love this way
I don't wanna hide us away
I wonder if it ever will change
I'm living for that day
Someday
When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that
'Cause I'm yours, I'm yoursOh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't we be like thatWish we could be like that
YOU ARE READING
365 days in one
RandomI don't know. Just stuff. When I was making this I was not at all sure whats gonna happen.