Violet Eyes

Chapter 5- It basically just died in my face.

It's Thursday now and I've been avoiding Thomas like the plague all week. Tiffany and I have also been hanging out a lot, and she's really helped me forget some of the drama, I'm so happy she's my new best friend. I didnt think that i would find a new friend as great as her when i moved i just thought i would be the new loner girl. I also didn't want to think about Thomas and his reaction to my crazy breakdown, but I guess I really had no choice, because it just wouldn't leave my mind.

What if he hates me now? What if he tells everyone I'm a nutcase? Or decides to make fun of me for it? I don't know, but after about 5 terrible scenarios ive conjured in my head I finally made it to the math hall for my first class. which Thomas was in...

"EMMA!" I heard Thomas yell jogging up to me. Speak of the devil...

Oh no.

Just keep walking with your head down and maybe he will forget about your pathetic existence. Yeah, not likely.

"Emma" he said again talking quieter since we were beside each other now. I screwed up my face and looked down at the floor.

"Thomas" I said in acknowledgement. Just act cool and see where this goes Emma maybe hell call you a name and get on with his life. I mean we could always hope for the best right?

" look whatever happened on Saturday, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to freak you out in anyway and I'm sorry if I pushed you too far. You've been avoiding me all week and I don't want that. If it was the kiss if sorry i'll never do it again, just anything to get you to talk to me i dont want to lose you as a friend, i was really getting to like you" He stopped me now holding my arm and we were staring at each other in the middle of the hallway. I looked up at him to show him I was listening and motioned for him to keep going. i wasnt ready to speak yet, i couldn't find my voice.

" okay well here it is, I don't care that you freaked out last Saturday- I mean I do care because I care about you but it doesn't affect the fact that I like you and you can be really awesome, I mean you are all the time not just some of it- look what I'm trying to say is that despite the somewhat terrible ending to our date I had fun and if you're still up to that second date then I would be the happiest guy in the world and i will all be under your terms". he looked at me hopefully.

I gave him a weak smile. It certainly wasn't one of my scenarios that I had thought up, but whether it was better or worse has yet to be decided. Eventually if we started dating he would want to know what happened and I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell him that anytime soon. Or ever!

How can I know that I can trust him with my darkest secrets and inner most thoughts? I can't! I wasn't born a very trustworthy person, I built up walls and as soon as Thomas came into my life I just forgot it all. Looks like it's time to build them back up again but instead of being the little pig who used straw before I'll just have to use the bricks instead.

So with that in mind I turned on my heel and bee lined it for my math room. not looking back at Thomas again.

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Math was a drag. Tiffany and I spent the entire time passing notes back and forth about the date-minus my reaction to the kiss- and about homework and just life in general. I swear she is the greatest thing that has happened to me since we moved to this crap-tastic town.

I looked up at the clock, we have 5 more minutes in this hell hole then we can leave, I told myself, taking deep calming breaths. I looked out into the hallway just in time to see Thomas walking up the hallway towards my class. why's he coming here?! he didnt even come to class today why show up for the final five minutes??