Poems from me

Depression

As we hide all of our true thoughts
We walk through high school with fakes
Friends that can't hear or see you
You hide your true self
From someone who should mean everything
Boyfriends and girlfriends
Best friends and acquaintances
Sisters and brothers
Mothers and fathers
They'll never understand
Your swallowed up in the darkness
It grabs you by your throat
Choking you until you can't breathe
This feeling is the only one that you can feel
Every other feeling is gone
Your not normal
Nothing is ordinary
This place is a nightmare
You don't want to kill yourself
But you don't want to be here anymore
This life is pointless
We are merely sitting ducks
Waiting for the reaper
Someone to take us from this hell
Your never honest
Only with yourself
You know that if you tell anybody
Tell anybody how you really feel
They will treat you differently
You shut yourself out
You stop talking to friends
You walk the hallways alone
Lunch is filled with indistinct chatter
Conversations about other people
Rumors and drama
Secrets and lies
People ask you if your okay
You say your fine
But your not
Your dead inside
Even your counselor isn't helping
Life is a bitch
I'm waiting for it to end
I'm not suicidal
I'm just ready for this shit to be over
Friends and family I'm sorry
But I can't do this anymore
Stop asking me what's wrong
Because one day
You will wish you never asked