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" im constantly running myself, and I don't know how to stop."

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you wrote a song about it.

" On the other side of the hottest idol rapper is a weak and vulnerable me, it’s quite dangerous

Depression and obsessive compulsiveness,
they come back time to time

Hell no, maybe that’s just who I really am

Damn, huh, this gap to reality,
this conflict with the ideal, it hurts me

I was 18 when anthrophobia hit me

Yes, that’s when my mind was clouded

It still scares me sometimes, this self-hatred

The depression that comes back to haunt me
Min Yoon Ki is already dead (I killed him off)

I spend my days comparing my burned out passion with others’

When I first went to see a psychiatrist, my parents came

They said to the doctor, we don’t know him anymore

I don’t know who I am either, so who does then?

Friends? You? No, no one knows me

The doctor asked me and I didn’t hesitate to answer

Yes, yes I’ve been there
I say I don’t give a shit, I don’t give a fuck

But all those words are to hide how weak I am

One of those days I wish I couldn’t remember

I had to go on stage, but instead I hid in the bathroom

I looked at myself in the mirror, terrified of people

Back then, I thought success is worth it all

But as time goes, I feel like I’m turning into a monster

My success, traded in with my youth, wants more

My greed that used to power me now swallows me

It ruins me, it leashes me

Some shove the fruit down my throat

But when I don’t want it, they want me out of the picture

Shit, shit, I get it, please stop

I caused this all, so let me quit on my own

If my despair is your happiness, let me be down

If I am the target of your hatred, I will stand on the guillotine

Things I’ve imagined came true, my
dreams in front of my eyes

The loser who’d perform for two now stands in Tokyo Dome

I only live once, so live it wild

Anyone can live the average
My fan, my homies, my fam, don’t worry

I’m okay, damn
I’ve denied my true self for so long

Yes, I’m an idol, I don’t hide that

All that pain that troubled my mind

This is the end of my being lost, there is no answer

I thought I had no pride left, but it’s all that I have now

My fans, keep those chins up, who does it better than I do

so don’t pretend you know what hardship is."

Army's were shocked,

and the internet was going crazy.

but it all stopped eventually after a few weeks.

I hope you realise what you're doing.