(past - present - lyrics) (play the song when I tell u)
7:34 AM Laval Liv's apartment
I held my broken wrist. Looking at myself in the hospital's mirror. Seeing my bruised face and arms. Once again, Samuel came home at 4 AM; drunk. I knew he cheated on me again so simply asked with teary eyes "is she better than me Sam? What does she have that I don't? Or you just fuck her to hurt me?" That's when he snapped; hit me till he couldn't anymore which is why my wrist is broken. After that he said "Don't talk to me like that fucking hoe. You don't deserve anything I've done for you. Hell you don't even deserve me." Then he left me there. I managed to somehow get up and call Sara to pick me up and bring me to the hospital. She knows. She knows everything, from the day he and I started dating till today. She knows everything I went through. She knows how fucking scared of him I am.
September 23rdd 10:34 PM Los Angeles Prettymuch house
That morning, i woke up crying, which for the past few days; happens really often. I keep having the same nightmare and it's really scary. I sighed ans got out of bed and put one of Zion's hoodie on. I didn't bother to put shorts on since it's basically a dress on me.
The hoodie :
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I brushed my teeth and went downstairs. I had my AirPods on so I didn't hear Nick and Edwin burst in through the door. Nick casually just picked me up and hugged me which made me scream. I took my AirPods out and said "what the fuck Nicholas Carter" "Watch out nick. She said the gouvernement name she might actually kill u" said Edwin putting the cereals he just bought in the pantry "welp" I laughed and got out of Nick's grip. "Where are the others?" I asked sitting on the counter "well... you kinda slept the whole day so the girls went to school and went back at Sara's, Zion went to the store and Brandon & Austin are at the studio" replied nick drinking Edwin's grape juice out the carton without even realizing it. Edwin was quick to see it and slapped him on the back of his head "Mine. Estúpido" he said taking back the carton shaking his head and putting it back in the fridge. A few minutes laters the door flew open revealing Zion with a whole lot of bags. Who knew this man was responsible enough to buy shit for others. I got off the counter and helped him "you don't needa help me babe. I'm a grown Man U know that" he said after I put the things where they were supposed to go. "Mhm.. two more minutes and you would've asked me to help u so" I said smiling and putting the hood on. He groaned and closed the space between us by smashing his lips on mine. "You look sexy in my clothes do u know that ma" "yes you've told me many times" I said looking up at him. "Lmao right. I just gotta remind u" he smiled and let go off of me and someone knocked at the door "I'll get it" i said running to it. I opened it "hi-" I froze. I couldn't move nor speak. "Sup Maria" "S-Samuel-l?" That's the only thing that come out of my mouth. Zion got up and came next to me. As soon as he saw him his fists balled up and he went in front of me. I low key thought they were gonna fight right here but Zion doesn't fight often. "Fuck u doin here?!" "I came to see Maria. Not you" "she doesn't wanna see ur stupid ass now leave or I'm calling the cops." Zion said calming down a little bit. While that was happening Nick got up and sat me down on the couch (can I even say that? It sounds weird lmao) "I'm not fucking leaving and if I am, she's coming with me. She's still my girl after all" Samuel said crossing his arms. "I said; leave or I'm calling the cops. Is that hard to understand?!" Zion spoke a little louder. "And she's not ur girl so leave. Now." Samuel sighed "We're not done Caleb." and with that he left. Zion slammed the door shut and hit the wall "FUCK". I flinched and hid behind Nick. Zion looked up and said "I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to scare you like that" he said as he hugged me. "It's o-okay" I stuttered. "C-can we just g-g-go to bed?" I asked "yeah come" he brought me upstairs in a bridal style and put me under the covers. "I'm gonna take a shower I'll be back" he smiled and kissed the top of my head. I laid there, doing nothing, just looking at the ceiling. Processing what the fuck just happened and then... I started remembering things I didn't want to remember.
