The Aftermath

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by shffkn

by shffkn

Two months passed without any single message from him or any slight chances for me to contact him back. Well, I already made my mind, never turn back, if he suddenly likes me back I'll just keep my ego as high as possible. Sometimes I do feel he does not deserve me but sometimes I do feel I want him back seriously please contact me back.

Unfortunately, as much I want to be away from him for these whole year of my degree' life, on my fourth we were in same class for most of the subject. Damn it. At first its nothing for me, I tried at my best to hate him and its worked but for only several months. Now, i fuckingly desperate, I want him back, I miss him, I cried myself so many times like please god i want him back. I miss everything about him his lame joke, his voice talking to me. Please, please i really miss him so bad.

One thing that make me more emotional is he really pretend as he dont know me at all. Yeah i expect that, i also didnt anymore chatting or engage with him but knowing the fact that he really make me as the stranger thats make me saddier than sad. Like dudeeee, once we shared our problem our secret. How come you so easily pretend, its nothing happen between us. Im sad. Im depressed. Im sobbing rn. I still love him so bad. Why he didnt have that mutual feeling. I thought that moving on is a easy process but its NOT! I still love you like you my egoistic crush. You really make me turn down.