I've been doing good until now, a smile was what i got used to on my face.
and now i can't even look at myself, what i see is nothing but a disgrace.
I don't know why my brain is fucked up and I've been through this a million times.
I wish the monsters would let me be but they come back and fight me with ease, and now i can't see colors and everything is gray.
And my arms miss being around you, i wish your warmth could comfort me.
But I'm stuck byself in an infinite slumber, and it's just a sucky, bad dream.
Why must i be this way? I've faught this mess for far to long.
Why must they hurt me the same? I've tried to so long and i just can't take.
take this pain and bare the ache of what i am cause what i want is just a dream written in the stars, and it's so far, so far i can't.
My brains a open house of magic ready to fly away, but i try hard to keep my thoughts contained as i look up in outerspace.
I wonder what life would be like up with the stars, hope I'm there.
I'll grow a magic bean and sprout up to outerspace.
What's it like to be up so high? Spread my legs and one day hope I'll reach for the skies.
But I'm a shooting star, falling to the ground now.
Why must they be this way? I've faught this mess for far to long.
Why must they hurt me the same? I've tried so long and i just can't take.
take this pain and bare the ache of what i am cause what i want is just a dream written in the stars.
And it's written in the stars.
I'm written in the stars.
I'm just a bitter little boy, tell me I'm not your toy
If my was heart is full of hope, would you still crush my soul?
Right now i wish i knew, how to run straight from you.
I've been trapped for long.
You look dead in my eye, tell me "that i can try."
But deep inside you say "you're not my son, no way."
But i know that it's hard, burn my hopes up like chard.
I don't need you, no i don't need you.
i have a Favorite doggy friend, he's with me till the end.
And he's the only one with me here.
But if you take the fake away, than i will gladly stay...
Why must they hurt me the same? I've tried to so long and i just can't take.
And i just can't take this pain and bare the ache of what i am cause what i want is just a delusion written in the stars.
Why must they be the same? I've tried to so long and i just can't take.
And i just can't take this pain and bare the ache of what i am cause what i want is just a dream written in the stars.
I'm just a bitter little boy, tell me I'm not your toy
If my was heart is full of hope, would you still crush my soul?
Right now i wish i knew, how to run straight from you.
I've been trapped for long.
You look dead in my eye, tell me "that i can try."
But deep inside you say "you're not my son, no way."
But i know that it's hard, burn my hopes up like chard.
what i want is just a dream written in the stars.
It's written in the stars.
And it's so far
I can't reach
And though we're far apart...
Alyssa, my dear sweet mystery girl you still tear apart my heart.
