Swasan Don't hate me Season 1

chap 33

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It was night when sanskar woke up with a nightmare.. don’t know why he was feeling restless.. He wanted to see swara now..
He stood up and went outside his room.. Night lights were been lighten.. He took his way to swara’s room.. He stood on its door.. Door was slightly opened.. He saw his love lying on the bed.. she was indeed looking like a sleeping princess.. With trying hard not to make any noise sanskar entered her room.. He sat on her bed.. With lots of love he stared at her.. She was in a deep sleep.. Dark circles around her eyes clearly indicated that she was deprived of sleep for months.. She has really become pale.. She lost herself completely just to take care of him.. Does he really deserve this much of love..
With utmost care sanskar took her palm in his hand and touched it to his lips.. He doesn’t wanted to wake her up.. He wanted to be with her.. He wanted their heart to talk.. He touched her hair.. He caressed them as if it was made up of gold.. He smiled a little.. His heart wanted to take away all the pain she had faced due to him.. He was unconscious but she.. She died everyday in this one year.. If she wanted she could start her life afresh but she didn’t.. She dedicated her everything for him.. How selfless was she..
Sanskar was thinking all these.. Tears fell from his eyes.. He just didn’t want ti wake her up so with lots of care he placed her hand on her belly.. He looked at her one last time and then moved out.. Swara opened her eyes and saw him moving out.. She smiled and followed him..

Sanskar was standing on terrace.. clouds were covering the moon.. Similarly tears were covering his eyes.. He felt a tap on his shoulder.. He turned and saw swara smiling at him..
Sanskar: u here..
Swara: yes.. Aapka kuch choot gya..
Sanskar: what..
Swara: yes.. U left your tears with me..
Sanskar: you were…
Swara: yes.. I was awake feeling your love for me..
Sanskar turned..
Swara: what happened.. You look tensed..
Sanskar: swara.. I was cursing myself..
Swara was confused
Sanskar: you know what.. Everytime i see you i remember that night… I remember how helpless i was.. I was not able to save you from those animals..
Swara: but..
Sanskar kept his fingers on her lips
Sanskar: let me speak swara.. Let me speak my heart out..
Swara: ok..can we sit and talk..
Sanskar nodded… They were sitting on a swing nearby at the next moment..
Swara: now say..
Sanskar: swara.. Don’t love me this much.. Everytime you care for me i feel guilty.. Swara really my heart aches everytime whenever i remember that night.. Your screams your tears.. Everything is fresh in my mind..
Sanskar looked at swara who was listening to all this with tears..
Sanskar: what happened
Swara: how dare you to say don’t love me haa… Who are you to govern my life.. Even god can’t stop me from loving you..
Swara said these things while hiding her unshed tears..
Sanskar: m sry swara.. But what can i do haa.. I always feel guilty as i was responsible for your pain..
Swara: u think that it was your mistake
Sanskar: yes
Swara: u want to rectify it
Sanskar: yes…but how
Swara: give me double the happiness by marrying me..
Sanskar wondered how easily swara said this thing.. Her innocence was clear in her eyes.. Sanskar held her face with his hands.. He looked in her eyes..
Sanskar: i am not eligible for this love swara..
Swara removed his hands from her face.. She looked at him and then ran towards the end of terrace..
Swara: ok sanskar.. Nhi ho na aap mere layak.. Ok.. I don’t want so great life which doesn’t have your name.. Nhi chahiye aisi zindgi mujhe jiske layak aap nhi.. Better to die then to live without you..
Sanskar: wait…noo
Swara turned and looked down.. Sanskar held her from behind and pulled her..
Sanskar: pagal ho gyi ho kya haa… I will die if anything will happen to you..
Swara: let me die na.. You said you are not eligible for my love then better to end this life na..
Sanskar: m sry swara.. N sry shonu.. I was wrong.. I was wrong..
He hugged her tightly.. Swara too hugged him back..
Swara: never ever repeat these words again..
Sanskar: promise..
Suddenly swara felt rain..
Swara: its raining lets move to a shelter..
Sanskar: i suppose u like rain..
Swara: yes but you will catch cold..
Sanskar: ok i am moving to shade.. You enjoy..
Swara: but..
Sanskar: i will enjoy watching you enjoying rain..
Swara nodded.. Sanskar went to shade.. He was watching swara..drop by drop getting drenched in rain. Rain drop wanted to touch her beautiful skin.. Swara was dancing like a small child.. She was smiling.. Sanskar was mesmerised to see her this form.. He was not able to control himself.. He went to her..
Swara: are you will catch cold..
Sanskar: i cant.. And if i will you are there for me na..
Swara nodded..
Sanskar: can i ask for a dance young lady..
Swara smiled..
Swara: but music..
Sanskar: our breathe and heartbeats are enough..
He held swara’s hand and placed it on his shoulder .. He took another and held it tightly yet softly in his palm.. He put another hand on her waist and pulled it lightly towards him.. They moved with the rhythm of rain.. They moved with the rhythm of heartbeats.. Why to need music when their breathes were enough..
Sanskar turned and turned her.. He was looking at her as she was hid queen.. He was handling her body as if it was made up of silk.. Everytime he twirled her.. He was able to feel her hair.. They danced and danced until rain stopped