"GET AWAY FROM ME" I say trying to run away but ran into the wall... "CALUM STOP" I slid down the wall and just let him beat me.. leaving aching pains in my arms and face. Me sitting their helpless... he finally stopped after 10 minutes of just hitting me in the same spots... I'm already getting a black eye... I sat their struggling to breath.. we were sitting in his apartment... he didn't live with anyone he just used me for sex... and if I didn't give it to him.. this is what he did. He stormed out of the room and slamed the door leaving me on the floor sitting in pain...
My name is Isabel i'm a senior... and I already deal with this. Me and him met at a Party my best friend Michael had a couple months ago.
I tried getting up but I couldn't I was so weak in the knees i'm still shaking by him he scares me so badly... when he does this... he just goes out of control. I just laid their waiting for someone to walk in.. but of course no one did. Tomorrow is Monday.. and of course Calum decides to this to me.. and now everyone is going to question me about it. My phone starts to ring I just sat on the floor not even trying to get up.
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I woke up on the floor to my alarm going off... I set it the day before.. I got up and went into the bathroom looking at how horrible I looked my lip was busted I had a black eye and my arms were full of bruises. I got my makeup out and tried covering everything up... I just decided to put a long sleeve shirt on and wear sunglasses. I walked out of the door slamming the door shut and Michael was sitting their by the elevator. "Hey Izzy" he says slowly coming over to me and hugging me... it hurt so badly but I had to suck it up.. like always. "Hey" I say as my voice cracks a little we got in the elevator and went to his car...
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We walked into the school everyone walking past and then I see... Calum.. he is with another girl.. his arm around her shoulders walking down the hall walking past me and Michael him smerking at me... I pulled Michael into the bathroom.. yeah I didn't care I just needed him to see if it was okay. We got into a stall and I took my sunglasses alone "Is it okay" I say pointing to my eye he gasps "Izzy what happened?" He says touching my cheek and rubbing over the part that hurt the most.. "Um... It's no.. big deal" I say looking around the stall struggling to make eye contact "Izzy be truthful I can't help you if your hiding shit" he says looking deep into my eyes. "Okay.. it was Calum... he beat me because I didn't have sex with him" I pulled my face into his chest while he grabs my waist and pulls me closer to him. "Just please don't tell... if it gets around school.. and everyone finds out.. he will hurt me more" I say trying to pull away but Michael kept holding on "I'm going to do something.. this isn't okay.. I won't tell anyone.. I just want you to be okay" He says quietly and let me go.. "Thanks" I say quietly opening the door and running out into the hall.
I make it to my class in time.. and of course I hear gasps and shit people are saying under their breath.. I glance over and see Luke and Ashton just staring at me a little bit and then turned around back in their seat. Luke and Ashton were Michaels.... Aquintances... they weren't friends yet.. they just said hi in the hallway and that was it.. I sat down in my chair looking forward at the board and just thinking.. how am I gonna survive today?
After class I walked to mine and Michael's usual lunch table.. it was in the back were no one sat at... I walk back their and just collapsed in the seat... it just felt great to get away from everyone. They all were just staring at me all day and I hate attention. Michael walks up with food for me and him... he's the only one who takes care of me... My parents died in a car crash a few years back.. and he is the only one who has taken care of me... we share the same apartment and everything.
"Thanks" I say as I grab my lunch and he sits down.. "no problem" it was so awkward.. because Calum hasn't like hit my face ever until last night.. so Michael never knew anything until today.. and I'm just scared of what he'll do. "Can you please tell me how your gonna deal with Calum?" I say looking down at the table. "I don't know yet.. but he is gonna learn his lesson" he says opening up him soda and drinking pretty much the whole thing. I sat back in my chair just looking at everyone passing by... not caring what they say.. just being themselves... and then Calum comes over.. he sits by me and puts his hand on my leg squeezing it a little hard "Hey babe" he says while leaning into kiss me... I kissed him back of course and Michael was so ready to get up and punch him but he said he wouldn't do anything. "Hi" I say leaning back and sitting back in my chair.
"What are you guys talking about" he says looking at me and then at Michael... "Nothing really... just want to beat someone's ass" Michael says from the corner of his mouth.. I look at him with a death stare and then he adds "Oh and.. i'm not going to tell you either" I role my eyes and look at Calum who is just staring away from us and at the girl he was with earlier today. "Why in the hell are you with me.. if you like another girl?" I say furiously and he snaps out of it... and looks back at me "Because I love you" he says letting go of my leg and took my hand into his.. messing with my fingers one by one.
I look down at my lap... and whispered to myself... "Yeah right" hoping that no one heard.. and of course.. Michael did.. he started cracking up. "I'm just gonna go" I say standing up and walking away.. I ran out the door and into the hallway... I started crying.. not even knowing why.. I hate when I did this.. i would cry out of no where and no one cared. I walk down the hallway and looked out the window... just seeing my reflection and being disgusted of how I look.
I heard a door open and close really quickly.. I looked over and seen Luke.. he ran over and touched my shoulder.. "Ow" I say turning around and looking at him. "What's wrong? I seen you run out" He says while pulling me down to sit on the ground. "Nothing... why would I tell you? I barely know you" I say trailing off and rubbing my eyes with the sleeves of my shirt. "Just because I don't talk to you.. doesn't mean I don't notice you when your hurt" he says slowly looking down at the floor. "Oh plus you hate me" I added while looking out the window... "I don't hate you" he says looking back up at me... "Well thanks for coming... and actually caring that i'm crying." I say standing up while helping luke regain his footing. "I'm just gonna.. go home because i'm not feeling too great" I say walking down the hall and into the office.
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I finally got home after walking for an hour... I walk in.. with no one coming to the door.. I miss my parents.. they always would greet me when I came home.. hugging me.. and kissing my forehead... I miss them just saying they love me... It just sucks that it had to end up like this.. they won't be their when I have kids.. or get married.. just nothing... except for Michael. None of my family talks to me... I live in New York.. while everyone else lives in Florida. They never call me...they only talked to me.. when it was my parents funeral. I set my stuff down on the ground and turn on my answering machine.. 1 unread message it said while I was walking into the kitchen.
" If you tell anyone about what I just did.. your dead" Calum says through the phone... oh shit.. now I have to worry about my life again... he always did this... he would always say this stuff.. but then he would go out and have sex with other girls.. I don't even know why I mattered.. I was just one of his girls that he picks up and throws away. I saved the message for future reference.. so I can prove if something gets really bad.. it's because of that.. I sat down letting out a big breath just feeling in pain...
I got up and ran up to my room... I laid on the bed and looked up at the ceiling... "I can't believe... I'm in this situtation and I have 1 person that has been here my whole life.. that probably loves me" I say at the ceiling while adjusting. "I hate Calum... more than I hate Luke" I began on talking "I hate me... more than I hate Michael... I would never hate him" I rolled onto my side.. causing pain and just fell asleep.. hoping not to wake up the next day.
