What is?

Us?

If I tell you how I feel,
What will become of us
We don't really have a friendship
So how could we have a relationship
Our lives are too messed up for this
I say to myself
As an excuse for not having to tell you
Not having to ruin anything that could happen
Who knows if we will become friends
Maybe even more or maybe not
All I care about is being there
You knowing I am here
And knowing you have people caring about you
That puts my heart and mind at rest
Knowing you can have all
And the best
So let's not ruin anything
I say to myself
Assuring myself that saying nothing is best
For you, for me, for us
And what may come to be
For the past may be forgotten
And the present will happen, but I can change the future and my path.